very bad day

i jus really hate myself so much now

woke at 9

rushed to bugis

reached at 10

then found out match was postponed

til 12.30

so waited

then aftwards

it was a walkover

so watch e match at like

1.30


n then rushed to yishun

met e gang

to study accounts

saw my ex's frenz

all ignored me

reached home at like 7

very depressin day

haiz

i am such a slut really...

its like when

i found out

e bball match was postponed til like

12.30

i stayed on

..

jintong

kept askin me to go

cuz he said he'll be nervous

if i stick around

but i was jus bein a bitch

didnt wan to leave

cuz i felt

like i came all e way here for nothin

i really wanted to watch this match

cuz i thght it would be fun

...


but in e end the match

was a walk over

so i stayed to watch e 1.30 match

j.t was still pesterin me to leave

but i said its jus 1 match

n then he finally gav in

but he told me to leave straight

aft or durin e match [if they lose la]

so....they eventually lost

i was jus dumbfounded

didnt knw wat to do or say

so i jus sat there speechless

we didnt speak aft tat

so i jus left on my own

.....

omg i'm such an idiot

i knw its nt my fault tat they lost

but i jus feel shitty

i'm jus so self-conscience

i did nt even care bout other pple's feelings la

i hate myself

shouldnt hav went

shouldnt hav even contacted them

i'm such a loser

i bring bad luck to evryone

i hate myself

i jus dun wanna talk or see them anymore

i'm guilty for life

i'm gonna ignore them

til i get accepted into nyjc

so they dun hav to see my stupid face again

god i really am worthless

i bet they really hate me now

thk they'll be happy if i jus disappear

frm their sight foreva