i knew all along tat u had feelings for me
i hid it within me for so long
we kept it a secret
pretended all day long
lookin like bimbos [gawk we're actresses]
but ur confession today
really caught me off-guard
u said u would treat me better
i bet u would
u said u would always be there for me
its believable
but it aint e issue

i'm filled to the brim
i cant take it anymore
depression is takin over me
i cant do this no more
i'm faking smiles.....i lost everythin
it hurts
it still hurts
u asked whether i still love him
no i dun
but i cant forget the pain.....
i'm badly scarred....u dun knw how it feels like
to be played....to be misunderstood....to be cryin all night while he sleeps peacefully
u dun knw how it would've been like
for him to look through u while u're standin there hurtin

i cant afford to feel tat way again
i'm scared
so pls stop askin for an answer
pls stop sayin how u're right for me
cuz i dun wanna thk bout it
....i still need time....
....eventually i'll say it....but not now.......as it still hurts

but u're jus unbelievable
cant believe u did tat to me
i'm outraged
wat the fuck do u thk u're doin ?
I"M NOT YOUR PROPERTY
u cant jus do wat u wan
did u hav to do tat ?
i'm hurtin so bad
why did u hav to make it worse....

...n i jus cried on e way home
i jus feel so shitty
sorry
i knw it aint a big issue.....
but i'm feeling so shitty now
i jus cant take it no more
i'm sick of life
i'm sick of living
sick of everythin.................