i laughed at myself in the mirror

n wished how it would be

so much better

if i was pretty....





everything would hav changed would it not ?


am gettin real edgy e past few days
think its stress or somethin
dun know dun care
jus been hating pple e past few days
am jus so irritated
haiz
so stay away pple....

some bitch tried to piss me off today
dunno wats her prob
but honestly i really dun giv a fuck
sweetie was real pissed at her
but he was more pissed at me
cuz i didnt shoot her back
but tats the way i am
i dun giv a damn when pple insult me
sweetie asked if i'm scared
but its more like
i dun see the pt wasting time on pple like her

i hav better stuff to do
sweeetie was sweet cuz he confronted her
but i dunno
i'm jus
....numb
dun feel no hatred or happy or sad
i jus cant be bothered

...
wonder if i'm becoming heartless
or maybe i'm jus to tired to care
...

either ways
it doesnt really matter to anyone i guess


i feel stupid
n i guess i should'nt care
i've never like u
since the day
u started hangin out wit ........ ....... ...
u're a bastard
n everyone knows

u shd know e reason
why i've stopped talkin to u
months ago
cuz i see no point
retards are contagious

jus leave me n my frenz alone
stay far away frm me in sch
or i'll feel tempted to poke u in the eye
wit mr chelvam's foot
[dun knw how i'm gonna do tat but i'll find a way...]


am watchin e whole
MVP qing ren [my valentine]
serial again
I'M BORED SHOOT ME
so am like starin open-mouthed
at e com for e past 3 hours
i love youtube
...
i think i'm going locco
cuz i was screamin around
when she was buryin her exboyfriend's wristband
i mean come on
tat is a NIKE dri-fit 16.90 wristand
i rather use it or burn it
why bury ???
save space for the trees man




hmmm
i wanna go cycling at east coast
i miss the sound of the waves
n the wind in my hair
....


god damn it
i'm in love
repeatin tat obnoxious phase
i'm in love
sayin it again
i'm in love
one last time
i'm in love

whohooooooooooo

lets all swim down to sabah n do e Makerena

omg.....

its like e fire works jus boom out frm behind
shooting stars crossin the midnight skies
coconut trees waving in the background
n all the cows grazing across the fields
wit the banglahs followin behind...

haiz ok i feel like throwing up now
....
.....


lovin the feelin of bein wit u
so much
tat it feels numb
n i can't feel anythin else
besides u
....n...
it dun matter anymore
...
tats y....
...
....
.....
tats y...


was croonin around
after school past 6 pm
n then i glanced past e basketball court
EVERYONE WAS TOPLESS
all i see was bare naked hot tan skin
and multiple pecs
...
....
be still my heart
....
i think i might hav a seizure whohoo


i am soooooo friggin boooored
its nt even mid years
n everyone is freakkin muggin at HOME
WTH
even my cous hu jus went in JC
has started readin e TYS
WTF
i cant rmb when was e last time i went out
my clothes hav mould on them
MOULD I SAY
feel like
jus randomly
pulled a stranger
n say "hey u look kinky lets hang out "
jintong will kill me
but hey it aint my fault
he dun bring me out anymore
HMPH....

so spent e entire day
at home watchin dramn serials
from 12 pm til
10 pm
i watched 2 goddamn serials
wit a lot of talkin n no sex
I"M BORED....

haiz...

but had fun on fri though
cuz it was HOCKEY TRAININ WHEEEEEE
n then it turned out to be self trainin
darn...
nyways played wit the seniors
sticks n balls were flyin everywhere
had a little injury wit e year-one

i had the ball n then we clashed

him : omg are u ok

are u hurt ?

me : no i'm ok

him : u sure u're ok ?

me : actually no......cuz u're still steppin on my FOOT

[mental headslap]

haha

oh ya

there was this guy frm year one

the one wit the very complicated name

[can't rmb but i call him stick boy]

he bought this 159 bucks GRAYS hockey stick

[mine was only 115....darn...]

n everytime someone

snatches a ball frm him

he would check his hockey stick

n shout "MY HOCKEY STICK OMG GOT SCRATCH LIAO"

like some stupid sissy man

so throughout the game i aimed him [^-----------------------------------^]

i kept wackin my stick against him whenever he touches e ball hoho

i'm a sadist

i luuurve it when pple scream

muahahaahhaaha

n then he went screamin in all languages

saying how badly his stick is scratched

n tat he needed an ambulance

haha

liyana was callin him the GAY one

LOL

haiz

man i'm rottin at home

I WANNA GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTT

i burst out laughin the moment
it hits me
but deep inside my heart aches
cuz i've been denying it all along


secrets.....
are meant to be kept right ?!
even at the cost of hurting pple ?
i can see her hurtin so much
i've been through it be4
his simple words
hit her so much
it turned her world upside down..
i guess this is really goodbye
when he said
"i jus dun love u no more "
wat am i suppose to do ?
i knew it from the start
but i hid the truth from her
....
a promise is made
to tie a bond between two pple
but then....
does it mean we hav to disregard
our other friendships as well ?

























































been a fucked up day
failed accounts test badly
got picked on by mdm ong again
its the hormones
[pregnant ladies man]
slept durin mob
died durin pe
[ i luuuurvvve sticks and balls whooohooo]

had a huge arguement wit sweetie
afterwards
uuurrrgh
sometimes telling a white lie
in actual fact its
worse than a black one
....
so sick of misunderstandings
so i jus sat
at CLEMENTI MRT station
...
for an hour
yep i jus sat on e bench
n stone away
...
kinda odd
cuz mainly
pple will be emo n
then we cry
n then we think bout e situation
but i dunno
all i did
was stone...

didnt think bout it

didnt cry about it

didnt feel any hatred or sadness or anger

i jus sat there for an hour

didnt know wat i was waitin for
or who i was waitin for
its jus so bizarre
haiz

met nelson
n then we bought my HOCKEY STICK
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
its BLUE
HOHOHO
i am so tempted
to wack all kinds of balls now
n see them fly to mexico :]]]]

...i jus miss 4e4
miss e pple n class sprit
haiz
...bein mature really sucks

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other


....i'm only human.....


its not easy to be someone ideal
i thought u knew
cuz u tried it before
then
wat about me ? ....
wat about everything i've work for ?


zai ge wo yi dian wen ruo....


stress....


give me a moment to bleed....




































































































fuck
some pple seriously need to
reach into their pants n find
bigger balls
cuz they're fucking pathetic

mind the language
i'm jus fuckin annoyed
some pple really need
a slap in the face

i might be a friend in need
i could be a mediator
i could be a shoulder for support
but i'm not a fucking BABYSITTER
i dun solve all fucking problems in your life
u're 18
u're mature

i dun get y u dun even wan to
make an effort of trying
to solve your own problems
its your life

u leave every single fuckin problem to me
n u skiddle off into the sunlight
leavin me to clean the shit up
n then u start bitchin
if i'm too busy or cant solve the problem

its nt like u're fucking five
STOP BEING DEPENDENT
u knw growing
is a splendid idea ??

uurgh
i had enough
so if u notice i've stop answerin ur calls
its high time
u stop clingin onto someone else
n get a life....