oooooooook
haven been updatin
knw u guys r gnawing at my bahoomas
but yea sorry was busy
it was XMAS
wat the hell did u expect

celebrated xmas eve wit my
dear J.T brahahaha
ate at....sushi tei
gt free ice cream frm e manager YAY
she luuuuurves me...i wish...
it was his ex-boss so yea
...darn...
countdown at some hill
nex to his block
it was empty n deserted
so yea go sort out e details urself k
hohoho
...

i hav no idea y it is upside down

took e vid of him secretly but got busted eventually darn...

sorry am real busy dis few days
cuz of work n xmas....darn...
so basically had fun workin
at united square
made new frenz
hanged out wit shirley n kevin
he's bi and hot YAY !!!!!

clubbin wit them n runie
tmr whohooooooo
we're goin PLAY
e hottest gay club in s'pore
where gays will be rubbin butts
n lesbians would be runnin round naked
we bi's would jus be in e middle

work was ok
half e time was throwin
babies out of e counter
hav no bloody idea how they
sneak in anyway

worst part was in e mornin
in e train....
was talkin to runie on e phone







fuckin pissed
life sux
it never was good in e 1st place
for once i thought i can like
fuckin rest frm work
n then she jus had to call me
n force me to work on xmas eve and day
like wth
i hate it when she jus pops in a slot
i was lookin forward to a fuckin
nice day out
i wanna take pics of e fuckin pink xmas tree in cAthay
i wanna sing carols round orchard
i wanna dress like an elf and run round e dustbin
in e esplanade again
....crap.....

why me
...there goes my fuckin youth

cant stand being round pple like u
i might be nice but dun take me
as a fool
i'm nt one to be toyed with
u can criticise me
poke fun at me
but u CANNOT change me
i am who i am
don wanna think about it
dun wanna talk about it
jus so sick about it
can't believe u're acting this way
i jus hate the way u look at me now
but jus rmb babe
wats goes around comes
all the way back around
so u better watch it....
cuz i dun giv credit to losers


i'm so hooked on e
korean drama witch yoo hee
tat i've forgot to feed my hamster again
[poor baby i'm so sorry i'll giv u a bubble bath tmr wheee]
...
hoho
there r mainly 2 reasons y i watch it

1. kim jung hoon [nuff said]....he makes me peee...true enough he looks so much hotter in goong but i still luv him so whu givs a shit....
2. 3 hot guys after some scary woman really turns me on......

n dun forget its 3 hot guys

everytime they come on screean[esp john n e american dude]

i'll be havin hot flashes [whew...fannin in progress]

ok back to watchin...ltr dudes

am so bored of work
all i do is fold clothes
n entertain aunties all day
n they always hav to ask
"r u malay or chinese ?"
some bald white guy even came up to me
n ask whether i was irish
n i smiled back sayin i was porturecan
[dunno howta spell...]

was real lethagic todae aft e incident
these 2 construction workers
came n bought t-shirts
1 of them gt tired of
walkin to e fitting room
he jus stripped in frnt of me...
n he was hairy
god his chest looks like a rug
i mean i'm a fan of bush
but this is overkill
n there is this like black spots
under his nipple
it was so....eye catchin...
i couldnt em let it go...unnoticed....
e worst part was :











































































































cant stop groovin to e beats
of justin timberlake
he's the man
he can sing
he can dance
he can beatbox
he can write songs
n he has a unique style
damn....i love him haha....

one of his first big hits
senorita....
love e little part frm 3.16 onwards
damn tat'll be fun doin tat in clubs







yessir was e basketball 3 V 3 tournament yesterday


at TAKA...


didnt sleep e previous night


cuz lord knws i'll never ever


be able to wake at lik 7 am


by myself


so might as well ton





i'm amused....real amused


cuz i enjoyed myself so much hoho


was real hesitant bout goin


but i promised J.T i'll support


plus i wanna see him in action


so go figure





e place was reekin wit testosterones


balls were flyin everywhere


man the place


was so high wit male chromosones


its frightenin...


if i was single it would be paradise


but i'm nt sooooooo yea....frightenin...





was real anxious cuz they lost e 1st round


[J.T , jun ming n jun chao]


but they owned for e remainin matches


e semi finals r held some other day


cuz it rained


THANK GOD


cuz J.T gt a lot of injuries


n he needed a rest


darn everytime he fell


i literally pop a blood vessel


[stress stress stress..i'm gettin old]





skipped work to see e matches


n i cant believe she fell for it








...i love my boss...


actually my right foot was really swollen


[nt by a jellyfish btw]


so went to a doc anyway


my gay doctor wasnt in [damn]


so was treated by some fatty


who read all e directions on paper [....noob...]





oh oh


n i saw keng keat , victor n bao cheng


doin referee tat day


victor was still an asshole


[guess fame didnt get to his head...tats nice]


he scolded me for still bein fat...haiz...


saw cin li and pris hangin out together


awww....





feelin more depressed as


days go by


i cant believe wat u did at e toilet


n the thing is i'm neither shock nor surprised


i knw i'm not perfect


i look around me


n i see near perfected pple


wit skinny frames n


beautiful smiles


i cant have tat


believe me i tried but i jus cant do it


but even so


...am i tat embarassed to be wif ?


i rather u hurt me wit honesty


than lie to me for eternally


...


all i wanted was all u could give
but is tat all ?
or am i jus blinded by love
sometimes i really dunno
whether this path i've taken was e right one
cuz its gettin steeper n steeper
n i'm nt sure if there is really a pot of gold
at e end of the rainbow
fairytales arent meant to be realistic
....
is it all or nothin at all ?


urgh i hate sea water
its good for e complexion
but it stinks for e health
am startin to get a fever [i guess...]
nana gt stung by a jellyfish [ooo its real painful...i can tell]
sha's sis gt rashes all over
darn east coast park is cursed

so we jus cycled like mad
swim in e sea
had a mini picnic
n now i'm home
[early for once..my mom called it a miracle...urgh]
best frenz at some gay bar so cant follow
sweetie needa rest for tmr's game so cant disturb
kat's back whohooooooooooooo
we met for a while then she had to go
she's here to stay wheee
i almost cried...darn...

needa wake real early tmr to cheer
J.T for his bb competition thing
holy crap its at 7 am
i thought only the birds n e bees
wake up round dere
normally at tat time u can still find me
snorin away...
haiz well sacrifices r to be made
in a relationship
hohoho
hav to rush to work
at united square at 12
damn....

n i'm feelin sick....
sign*...life wasnt tat complicated be4





been working loads this days
if i'm free i'll be somewhere
accompanyin my sweetie
or jus basically runnin around
orchard like an idiot playin
peekaboo wit frenz
...
didnt hav any "me" time
this past month
i needa break...but i dun wan one...go figure
...
made a new girlfriend
forgot his name again urgh...
but he's a great shopper
he encouraged me to buy e giraffe dress
e one i wanted...
so yep there goes my 100 dollar pay...
...
n i'm pissed by it
i calculated manually n mentally..
i worked 11 days
worked past 88 hrs
my pay shd be like 500+
not bloody 100 bucks
n it indicated [paycheck]
tat i only worked for 18 hrs
wtf..
i'm goin ballistic
i'm furious
i wanna stab someone
or jus kick justin in the balls [i'll smile for a week continuosly]
....
met my cousin for shoppin today
she's 34
has 4 sons
n has an hourglass figure
i'm 17
hav 2 hamsters
n hav a pig figure
...ironic...so ironic...
she bought me an espirit dress
hohoho
its damn...cute...
but its so not me...cuz i aint feminine
i'm macho hohoho...

kats comin back on fri n i'm excited
i miss my big sexyshagedelic cousin

watchin full house again
i'm addicted haha

really need cash
bein tempted to steal again
oh god oh god oh god
wat hav i become...







holy crap


been actin real retarded for e past week


its cuz of work


its drivin me nutz


n i've changed becuz of it [jus realise...like wth]


been givin attitute to everythin n everyone


threw my life-sized bear across e room


in a fit..


well i gav it a hug aftwards


so i thk it forgave me...


i'm so sorry


to all e pple i've hurt


especially J.T....


if u're readin this...


baby i'm so so so bloody sorry ok


didnt mean to hurt u


i'll be good from now on ok


hohoho


...


cant imagine i was some slimy


punchbag hu kept dissin everyone


omg


i acted like an old hag


holy crap


i was turnin into


some menopausal stuck up no life auntie


shit...shit shit shit shit shit...


pretty soon


i might be


smoking like a chimney


drinkin like a fish


n dressin like my mother


o god...


i hav to stop


okok


new years resolution


i hav to put my priorities first

1. studying like some nerd [read gurl read]


2. exercise like maniac [lose e stress n oozin fats]
3. eatin healthy stuff [no more coffee n doughnuts]

n then i hav to get rid of these bad habits

1. emoing [i dun wanna be suicidal nymore]
2. sleepin like a dead person [cuttin down frm 12 to 10 hrs]
3. impulse shoppin [expensive but fun]
4. quit fantasing bout abs , lean muscular thighs or arms or buffed up chest or tan hairless skin

ok guess by nex year i'll be a saint oooooo

all tat i wanted
all tat i needed
was for u to be happy
for u to feel tresured
to be able to believe tat u're not always alone
...
n all tat i asked
was for u to appreciate it
n take me as i am
....
was it...jus a fool's dream ?
things dun always turn out e way they shd be
there are no promises
in dis world
tat can be kept well
...
all i wanted
was all u could give