finally got smt to add to my
" things i did be4 i died " list
so technically
fainted in frnt of e whole sch
durin assembly
gt dragged out be4 e national anthem started
n no one saw tat
AMAZING

was already feelin blurrish dis mornin
reached sch at 7 again [ thanx mom u're so clueless]
i hav dis thing goin on for weeks
whereby everytime i eat i'll want to throw up
but never do
actually was feelin nt bad
until u came n broke my heart again
srry i ignored
i didnt knw how to react [was blur]
but i did say hi

so yea was sick n depressed
couldnt take it i was crying all e way to e hall
n then fainted

slept durin class
slept in e sickbay durin chinese
i kept havin tat feelin of wantin to vomit
but cant
so i jus fuck it
durin break i jus stuck
3 fingers down my throat
n everythin came out YAY

i couldnt cope todae if
sha wasnt holdin my hand
its funny...i've always imagine u'll be e one
doin tat but....now i realise.....its jus wishful thinkin
....u dun care bout me at all
its funny.....even though how
much u hurt me...i still love u
its crazy
...but someday...it'll stop

was pissed at ain n nikki
cuz they left me alone n freezin
at mac for 45 min
n i was comin down wit a fever too {played in e rain jus now ;] }


went to e doctor
he did some weird pervertic tests
he said i was sufferin frm depression n stress
i jus started laughin
he was all concern sayin i need help n
kept askin whether it was a boyfriend prob
honestly
its more of e term
"boyfriend" tat is e prob
threw e medication away
seriously
if bein like this helps me lose weight
then i rather be 4eva depress
besides no one cares

kat broke off our date
so i'm dateless for e weekend
again
haiz