kept thkin of him on stage dancin jus now hahahaha
[he's a twig muahahaha omg i'm evil...sue me]
gurls came at 4.30 when we agreed on 3.30 haha hilarious
room was in a mess
powder on e floor
makeup on my bed
ice cubes on my towel
AND I LUVED IT
hahaz my room needs a life seriously
ran to n fro barefooted on e streets
[i swear i was born an african but got switched up]
em kept fallin n bangin into stuff [cant balance on high heels for nutz]
theres always somethin stupid tat will happen

rushed to esplanade in a cab
BLOODY 18 BUCKs
god i'm broke again...............
half way there we all felt like dancin
hahaz too bad we're underage...[darn]

seriously caNT understand dance
toooo chim
its sooooooo chim tat we found it borin
butt cramp*
u gurls look so gorgeous today
everyone[mostly] were wearin dresses
mmmmmmmmmm feminine bananas

reached home at like 1
spent half an hour in e shower
gettin rid of all e junk n stuff off my body [makeup,bodybutter,gel...lalala]
so damn exhausted now
zzzzzz

babes i knw u guys r concerned bout me
haha but i'm ok...we're jus frenz
we're over it so dun worry k [^---------------------^]


mmm teachers day celeb was rather cute hahahz
saw 100 hot bods runnin round e sch today mmm [motivation in e mornin ]
hmm lots of talented pple in MI
loads of powerful vocals
he look so diff in his comfort zone
giv a guy a blazer and a hat wit a wiff of cologne
ta dah a man is born
hahaz
jus addicted to guys colonge
luv e sexy musky vibe tat makes me tingle all over......
so gonna rest now
e gurls comin over at 3.30
gonna dress up look great
cuz we're gonna rock e esplanade later
at 8 pm haha
bleu en rouge
here we come
07B1 FOREVER

he was on stage
tats where he belong
saw him on court
tats where he belong
i dun knw where u belong
but its no place i can be

saw them wit their new paths
its where u guys belong now

i knw it i expected it
cuz life moves on
whether we notice it or not
in our mind we secretly accept it
but my heart does not
its easier said than done


i'm tired of life
wats the point
of waitin n hopin for somethin tat will never come true
wats the pt of wishin when u knw it wont come true
so sick of everythin
skipped 7 periods of sch today
jus so meaningless

they were starin again - i dun care

they were discussin wat to do - i dun know

he was tryin to hurt my heart again - i wasnt affected

jus dun wanna do anythin nymore....so tired

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

hate myself

supposed to start preparin for promos....but

urgh...the mind is willing but the body is dying

been reachin home increasin late

somethin interestin happened today at e canteen....was standin at e drink stall n then this grp of girls were behind me....they started bitchin bout some girl...

so like yea i actually felt srry for her a little even though i dunno her cuz i mean bein insulted like tat is a bit overboard

but stopped feelin sorry when they started pointin and laughin again

urgh wateva

jus gonna ignore evrythin....we hav class [ahem]

was supposed to reach home str aft sch to study

but find myself at del's house bakin COOKIES wit QY n gang MMMMMMMMMMM

[wanted to lick myself HOLY CRAP]

love my class...hahaz...this fri pple OMG OMG OMG

hahaz.....damn tired la today

rushed home to get e dresses

then rushed to del's house to bake cookies

rushed home again to change

rushed to SMU for dance

watch e vids.....bunch of retarded frenz doin e evolution of mankind haha

got chased out by e side-swiped security guard

so took a cab to e underground passage at citylink

gt damn fed up...some newbie was like runnin round in circles

so we jus got off n walk there...[i'm bossy tell me bout it]

kinda stupid we didnt even danced we were jus rollin around

doin e mash potatoe moves hahaa [freakin retro la]

on e way home

he pulled me aside

n demanded to knw wats wrong wit me

n then somethin happened n then i slapped his pretty little cheek

it was not intentionally...i mean it was a natural reaction...i gt scared..omg....i mean its like if u see somethin fly towards u..u will hit it away right ? without question...

was damn awkward...he jus walked off [ guess i hurt his ego big time]

i was bein e bimbo...jus standin there takin it all in

wished i could jus be like tinkerbell "tink" n disappear

he came back 10 min ltr n sent me home

we didnt talk....we didnt even mention bout wat jus happened

he sent me to e door

said gdnight...ran up e stairs

ran to my room

slam e door

.................................sign*

so so so so so bloody confused.........

i'm speechless.....how am i suppose to react ? why......why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why ...impossible...

why didnt i noticed be4

why when u started winin n dinin me...when u strted seein me home...when u gav me ur jacket in ur rain...when u were there all along....why didnt i stop n wonder ?

why now ?

why me ?

why me.......................

srry....maybe its cuz i was blind

but aft all tat we've been through i find myself still confused

....giv me time...

sch's dull as usual
ate at mac wit them
was stunned at swee wan's reaction
when i gav him e present
he jus took it....he wasnt shock , happy or curious
odd ball hahahz
i knw he said he wasnt angry wit me for stoodin him up
but u knw the guilt is there
so bought a teeny weeny present for him
wit a "sorry lah" note haha

was more stunned by ur question aiishah hahahaz
thoought somethin serious happened hahaz

ok a note on gossiping
i mean i'm cool wit pple gossipin
i mean i too gossip so its giv and take
but if u really wanna do it
pls be discreet ok ?
its so obvious u're talkin bout them
u kept starin
n even though i wasnt there
i was still kinda annoyed
when i heard
cuz u wont like it if
pple keep turnin around to stare and laugh at u
while u're eatin right ?
so yea

n wat u did was really rude
e canteen is not yours
so if u're nt happy bout us talkin to him u can always move somewhere else
even though we dun knw u
n u dun knw us
doesnt mean u can diz us this way
its not cool

was feelin down today til i saw u
it was real funny
we bumped into each another a lot today
e funniest one was at e canteen
.....
i looked at u
u looked back
we made eyecontact
a smile was forming on our faces
n then we burst out laughin at each another
n then we started teasin again
like last time
it might jus be a smile frm u but it brighten up my day :]
u were actin normal
but when i looked in ur eyes....i can still see u hurtin
its not my place to ask wat happened
after wat i did to u
i dun thk u trust me as much
but wateva it is
u knw i'm still here
...always

am so bloody excited
big girl night out on fri hahaha
it was real style
thkin bout a bunch of gurls in skirts
tearin down e pool parlour
but tat idea gt washed out
but nyways
i dun care where we go as long as
we're together hahahz
so EXCITED
[wat to wear wat to wear]

was feelin damn happy
til i bumped into u
u wre jus standin there
i really didnt knw wat to do
so i turned away
its funny
[dis kind of stuff aint important to u.....so why am i so worked up on it ? ]

i did wat i wanted to do
i tried wat i could do
so its over
i already tried my best to make things right
so i'm relieved
tat...its finally over
i've stop thkin of ways to talk to u
i've stop thkin wat went wrong
i've stop thkin wat i shd hav done instead
.....
all i need now
is to stop thkin bout u
its workin honestly
i've stop thkin so much
since our last confrontation
so in bout a week's time
i'm gonna be alright

jus go bout ur life
n i'll go bout mine


today's gonna be a good day
yap yap ahahaax
damn hyper now
and super sick hahaa
[was dancin in e rain to "you can't stop the beat" wit my bro last night haha]

i finally did it
[dis proves i'm mature]
its true u guys i admit
i'm a loser n a whiner
all i did was cry behind a curtain
i didnt dare go forward and confront him
but i jus did
hahahaz
wasnt askin for forgiveness or watsoeva
was askin for confirmation
whether we're frenz or enemies
i left e last say to him :]
n i feel good
cuz his answer will end
my constant emo thinkin n assumptions
finally feel relieved
i can start out again :] YAY

busy busy day today

• need go shoppin for shoes wit them
• need go cine N.U.M to meet zhi yang for sean's forfeit haha
• need go bukit batok police station for my forfeit OMG [hyperventilatin]
• need find outfit for this fri [esplanade at night]
• need outfit for this fri [skippin sch to go back to gyss...srry cin mus disturb u again haha]
• need to rush to replubic poly for DANCE
• need buy hairspray soundtrack [ZAC EFRON HUBBA HUBBA]

'Cause you can't stop The motion of the ocean

Or the rain from above

They can try to stop the paradise

We're dreaming of But you cannot stop the rhythm

Of two hearts in love to stay

'Cause you can't stop the beat!

You can't stop the beat!!

You can't stop the beat!!!

aft takin hell loads of pics last night
[swear i had a seizure]
found out i 4got to insert in e memory card
.............i thk i'll go cry now
I LOVE SCHOOL
muahahahaa
its now my fav place for entertainment
cuz in e canteen its a soap opera
in class its mad tv
n durin P.E its animal planet
.....
life is goin back to normal
for once i could concentrate in class
[ didnt sleep didnt stone didnt cry didnt emo]
YES...FINALLY
n he rekindled our friendship
we're nt close frenz nymore
but...its a start
....
thk 4 forgivin me i wont ever do it again
saw u in sch
but u were damn moody [ girlfriend trouble ? ]
hahaz smile babe....bet ur girlfriend has 99 probs so dun add on to it k [^-----------^]
.......
failed POA test again...haiz...i suck
qiao ying wat u did in e canteen was bloody hilarious
hahaz thanx for cheerin me up
n i swear i'll never skip management tutorials again
its was bloody funny haha



friggin tired
u knw its really sweet sendin pple b.dae sms
at exactly 12 am
but.....if its past tat FORGET IT OK
god
12 am - 6 sms
2 am -3 sms 2 calls
4/5 am - 8 SMS 1 call
....
omg.....
i knw it would be logical to off my hp
but...dunno seems rude to me
wateva i'm weird...
sch was as usual
was panickin when mrs tan asked me to stand in frnt of e class
[omg wat did i do ?]
was bloody scared
n then e class started singin e birthday song
awwwwwwwwwwww
went frm panic state to bloody pai seh
thx u guys
..
am bruisin all over now [birthday bashes...i had like 5 or 6 of them ]
fion was e most painful but....
[u seem moody todae girl cheer up k....u can always vent ur anger on me haha]
...
finally understood how misss kar gets her figure
cuz she's depressed
she talked to us bout how she felt n she was stuffin herself...[ate a ginger too]
....
very ironic
i hav to cry on my b.dae
jus started burstin into tears in e canteen
was really jia lat [those kindof cryin whereby ur voice shakes]
everyone was askin wats wrong

n e nex thing i knw
my phone was being passed round
pple were tellin me wat to do
wat to say
wat to feel
sha was smsin him usin my phone
..i was jus an idiot sittin there cryin: why he had to say tat why ?
n then i heard a black secret
frm his close frenz
oooooo....sorry

[actually its kinda funny lookin back]
i was silent
i dun wanna talk dun wanna argue dun wanna think dun wanna remember
...appreciate u guys [ i thk u knw hu u are]
for bein there for me
n i knw its true tat
if i was alone i wouldnt send tat sms
i mean even though he's tat bad
i mean we went through a lot
n....i jus dun wanna let it end like this
aint cool...but...wateva
its time to let things go
i'm sorry so so so sorry
.....
didnt wanna celebrate b.dae todae
cuz i'm celebratin on fri , sat and sun [^--------------------^]
was on my way home n then she called
sayin they had a party for me
wanted to say no
but they said they had e cake n everyone was there
...
rushed to SEMBAWANG
had a subway b.dae cake....[i knw its pathetic U GUYS LIED...HMPH]
hahahz kidd
rushed to TOA PAYOH
for another surprised party
urgh
thank u guys u're so sweet
thanz tan its e 1st time a guy baked for me hahaha
[ srry was angry at u cuz u threw away e cake, i mean i'm damn touch u baked it so u didnt hav to threw it away...even if it tasted bad....its a cherishin moment n i wanted to rmb e feelin]
.....
finally reached home at like 7 +
n then gina called
gina : wake up loser , we're goin boozin
.....
...........
................
am so gonna fail POA test tmr
....
meetin at like 1 am
so yea gonna dress up , look hot
n figure howta climb down my window
without fallin on my ass again later

i wanna let u knw tat u dun hav to go
u're lying , its true , it doesnt hav to be this way


so like yea
tryin to learn reggae frm gina now
ooo its fun
gt most of e hand movements down
but.........
i cant booty pop for nuts
i hav a huge booty tat cant pop
urgh




aint she hot ?
love you kk and cin
my kor kor 's
without u guys i'll die haha
my yodas
i'll listen to u guys
n i'll keep e promise i made
i wont degrade myself nymore hahaahah


was damn sick this mornin
thanx to e wild party last night
at bout 12 am
gina called to drag my behind
to her booze party
she was celebratin her 109th day bein single
[jus an excuse to drink]
so em yea
i sneaked out through my window
[ i live on e ground floor, room on 2nd]
climbed down e pipe n landed on my ass
freakin pain
thought i had a hernia
....
so yea everyone was drunk when i gt there
[ playin hav u ever ?]



great way to start e day
i was...em literally possesed for like 2 min

skipped management again as usual
was bouncin round e room at e library
tats when we started talkin bout ghost stories
...it was when ain was talkin bout her experience
then i felt it
it was behind me
they were askin y i was silent
but i jus kept quiet
cuz it wasnt movin
so i jus let it be
it touched my shoulder
i pushed back
...
finally freaked out when
i saw this black blurrish figure at e corner of my eye
n then e cd's moved
i wrote on e foolscrap
"stop talkin"
ain was like " y"
n then she turned around
n went " ooooooooh"
me and nana could feel it
ain could see it
sha was jus clueless
...
n then sha started panickin n cryin
she started to recite e bible
n then i jus started laughin
i couldnt stop laughin
dunno y
5 min later
ain said it was gone
n then we jus ran out

[at e canteen]
ain : it was a blurrish black figure n it walked frm behind marilyn to sha n then jus sat nex to
sha n stared at her
nana : y were u laughin
me : i dunno jus felt like....no reason
ain : i thk u got possesed
me : em noooooooo....if i was i would feel it right ?
nana : i was huggin u askin whether u were ok u didnt reply
me : u hugged me ? [seriously dun rmb]
ain : def possesed

em ok
haha
me and wan yi ran durin break
she was angry
i was depressed
haha gurls are so alike
i mean like
i've already decided to let it go
all we do is argue when we're together
it'll never work out
so frenz is e way to go
but i'm still human
i need time

make a police report
lost my wallet
e police guy was hilarious n cute
he : so where u live ?
me : bishan
he : wow tats far
so if i found ur wallet do i get a kiss ?
me n ain : WAT ?
[seriously wat they teach at e accademy]
me : [pt at ain] u can hav hers
he : ok i'll drive up n down hume ave ltr to look for ur wallet
so wat does it look like
ain : its a hellokitty wit a protrudin ribbon
he : [laughin] this proves she's still a girl nt yet a woman
me : [pt at e door] GET OUT

we chatted alot
damn freakin funny la
ain : i gt this feelin u're gonna keep buyin drinks frm e policestation everyday
me : funny i can imagine myself doin tat too

do you miss me now ?


cant believe i trusted u so much
pple say u werent worth it
tat u were jus playin
but i had to believe u
u asked whether i like you
i said oh , yes i do
GOD I'M SUCH AN IDIOT
a week ago
u said u luv me
how i really wish it was true
but all u ever did was break my heart over n over
again
why ?
is it fun
to insult me
hurt me
hit me
watch me cry ?
u jus dun knw how to say sorry do u
or is it cuz u dun feel e need to
i feel like i'm jus a toy to u
for ur entertainment
4 u to hug n kiss when u wan to
n jus chuck aside
when u feel like it

i hurt almost everyday
u didnt care
i was fuckin sick
u werent there
i was standin there crying
u ignored

seriously
how can u say u luv someone
when u dun show affection
or ny sign of care or concern
i thk cuz u really dun like me at all
i'm sick of it
i'm gonna giv up
it was stupid of me
to thk a typical girl like me
can make a guy like u love

so we're gonna maintain as frenz
gonna stop all my wishful thkings
gona keep my distance
cuz aint no pt
if u arent gonna say wat u wan
n if u're nt gonna appreciate me
then there's no pt
even though i love u
its jus wishful thkin
havin a relationship wit u
cuz i'm nobody
nothin special
i'm jus the girl nex door


e fireworks at e esplanade were
bloody AWESOME
i was jumpin up n down like some bunny on crack
hate it when i'm short

n i lost my wallet
n i didnt panic
muahahahaha
too tired to care...really

luv sean n runie
thanz runie for personally puttin on
plasters for me
i'm prone to blisters
seriously
skaters are HOT
bumped into this skater twice
bet his jap
cuz he's freakin gorgeous
makes me wanna learn skateboarding

i'm jus obsessed wit solid colours now
love everythin tat was solid blue at far east haha

saw this really really cute guy on e bus
n he was smilin back at me
could hear them talkin
they were sayin stuff like
she's gonna get down
ask her number ?
n they kept starin
...
but in e end
guys jus hav no balls
but he was really cute
5 min aft alightin
iwas still jumpin around
arrrrgh
fate will let us meet again haha
i knw u stay AMK [^---------------------^]


finally got smt to add to my
" things i did be4 i died " list
so technically
fainted in frnt of e whole sch
durin assembly
gt dragged out be4 e national anthem started
n no one saw tat
AMAZING

was already feelin blurrish dis mornin
reached sch at 7 again [ thanx mom u're so clueless]
i hav dis thing goin on for weeks
whereby everytime i eat i'll want to throw up
but never do
actually was feelin nt bad
until u came n broke my heart again
srry i ignored
i didnt knw how to react [was blur]
but i did say hi

so yea was sick n depressed
couldnt take it i was crying all e way to e hall
n then fainted

slept durin class
slept in e sickbay durin chinese
i kept havin tat feelin of wantin to vomit
but cant
so i jus fuck it
durin break i jus stuck
3 fingers down my throat
n everythin came out YAY

i couldnt cope todae if
sha wasnt holdin my hand
its funny...i've always imagine u'll be e one
doin tat but....now i realise.....its jus wishful thinkin
....u dun care bout me at all
its funny.....even though how
much u hurt me...i still love u
its crazy
...but someday...it'll stop

was pissed at ain n nikki
cuz they left me alone n freezin
at mac for 45 min
n i was comin down wit a fever too {played in e rain jus now ;] }


went to e doctor
he did some weird pervertic tests
he said i was sufferin frm depression n stress
i jus started laughin
he was all concern sayin i need help n
kept askin whether it was a boyfriend prob
honestly
its more of e term
"boyfriend" tat is e prob
threw e medication away
seriously
if bein like this helps me lose weight
then i rather be 4eva depress
besides no one cares

kat broke off our date
so i'm dateless for e weekend
again
haiz


i'm seriously hate
the way u talk to me
i've already walked over
e incident whereby u called
me a fuckin bitch n ask me
to fucked off
n u didnt even say sorry
u didnt even feel e need to
wateva
past is past
but u jus hav to keep
hurtin me do u ?

c'mon get real
its no lie i really like u
everyone can see tat
so y e fuck would i bitch bout u
n worst of all
u take it as a joke

i was bein fuckin emo
jus now
my best cousin / friend
whom i haven seen in a year
flew hundreds of fuckin miles
home
n i jus had to be emo
in frnt of her
i thought u were serious
i thought u were hurt n angry
but no
u sounded as if it was a joke
n u cut my call....again

how e fuck u wan me to react
i was close to tears
n u jus......no comments

its true i really really like u
hell i spent e whole dae in sch
scoutin for u
but there's a limit
to how much humiliation
i can take

i knw nothin bout u
i'm nt ur girlfriend
nt ur date
nt ur entertainer
hell i dun even knw
wat i mean to u
but all i knw
is tat u hurt me fuckin badly
n wat happened was
way not cool

for once can u jus stop breakin my heart ?


ok on my b.dae

1. both best frenz hav prelims
2. my partner in crime , sha has dance
3. i hav 2.4
4. too broke to hold a gathering
5. n...its on a sch day

dun get me wrong

i mean some of u guys

offered to bring me out

i'm touched

but i jus expected a party

oh well.....

i'm so so so so sorry i doubted u

i mean i wasnt angry

jus hav mixed thoughts bout her

n a hint of jealousy [-_-;]

but u prove me wrong hahaa

i'm an idiot

seriously i knw i'm bein a bitch but yea

listen to this

"fragments of misery business" [facts]

She's got a body like an hourglass

That's tickin' like a clock

It's a matter of time before we all run out

When I thought he was mineShe caught him by the mouth

I waited a few long months

She finally set him freeI told him I couldn't lie

He was the only one for meTwo weeks and we had caught on fire

She's got it out for meBut I wear the biggest smile

Second chances, they don't ever matterPeople never change

Once a whore, you're nothing moreI'm sorry, that'll never change

Well, there's a million other girls who do it just like you

Looking as innocent as possibleTo get to who

they want and what they likeIt's easy if you do it right

Well, I refuse, I refuse, I refuse

Whoa, I never meant to brag

But I got him where I want him now

Whoa, it was never my intention to brag

To steal it all away from you now

But God, does it feel so goodCause I got him where I want him right now

And if you could then you know you wouldCause God, it just feels soIt just feels so good

n perhaps u caught me red-handed jus now but jus rmb if u spread e incident pple will jus thk u're a pervert...nothin more....he might not mean nythin to u....but i knw wat u're tryin to do....i've never asked for ur forgiveness

nikki's n nadia's circumsized eeyore cake



its jus e way u are
tats y its so interesting
hahahaaha
luv ur crab walk on e
basketball court haha
..u knw dun u


was discussin last night

kk : u really idiot loh...this kind of guy
how could u fall for him....ahyo i goin faint liao

gina : u go girl..u jus kiss him..kiss e crap out of him
me : tats new
gina : put it this way....a petty guy like him means lots of makeup sex
me : .....OUT [pts to e door]
gina : its my house u idiot
me: ...fine...........IN [pts to e oven]

lovely gay day at sch
skipped mgt
was foolin around in e library
stand at e back of e class
durin chem
n left sch durin HT
hahaha

oral was ....[no words to describe]
e sch was Freakin oooolu
wat e hell is juying sec
its like in e middle of nowhere

slept while waitin 4 my turn
i'm jus burned out
3 days without food....[does coke count ?]
had sleepless nights since last tues [^-------------^]
i'm jus cranky
period

was laughin durin oral
e pic was stupid
cant believe e guy examiner
fell asleep durin one guy's turn
HELLO..tat is fuckin no respect
grades = life
i would've smack him on e head if i was e guy
dipshit...

finished at 5 rushed to sch
celebrated nana b.dae
I LUV E ICE CREAM CAKE
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
was freakin high
eeyore got circumsized
everyone was full of cake
lookin like we had a bad shave
smelt like cake
if i was more pervertic i would've licked myself..mmmmmmmmmm

played truth or dare
em
i let out our secret
cuz it wouldnt be fun
if i lied
so yea
they said wat happened tat day was sweet
OMG
yea sure gettin bruised all over is sweet

left sch at 7

sweetie u dun hav to assume anymore
i love you
now u knw my story
its bout time i hear bout yours


pics of e national day at e padang....


so bloody bored
dun u jus hate it when
pple keep askin u out on e wrong days
...period....
so bored i was actually goin through old records

luv old sch music
those were e songs tat really get
cha in the mood
present songs
are jus 60 % catchy music 20 % sound effects 10% of girls moanin in e background
n 10% of e singer's voice

was watchin vids
of e spice girls
nsync
and five
haha really old sch

was flingin my arms n singin to songs like "wannabe" n "tearin up my heart "

hang out at gina's place
she gt me this custom made bear at vivo city
in which she recorded her own voice inside e bear
hahaz
she actually sang
e song "lovefool"
was so touched i gave her a smooch
...
n then 5 secs ltr there was silence

em....FYI : i'm nt a lesbian
i jus em...like spreadin e love
n em....i like kissin too
em.....
lately i've kinda been kissin alot of pple
so yea....
i mean in sch my clique
do e french greetin thing
so we basically kiss everyday....
well at least there was no tounge involve
...or any other kind of substance xchange....
eww

mostly did girl talk
n compared....em physical quantities
felt awkward n left earlier thanx
to gina's sis [married]



Last time that we had this conversation
I decided we should be friends Yeah,
but now we're going round in circles,
tell me will this deja vu never end?

Oh Now you tell me that you've fallen in love,
well I never ever thought that would be
This time you gotta take it easy throwing far too much emotions at me

But any fool can see they're falling,
I gotta make you understand

[ chorus]
I'm giving you everything all that joy can bring this I swear
(I give you everything)
And all that I want from you is a promise you
will be there Say you will be there (Say you will be there)
Won't you sing it with me

If you, put two and two together you will see
what our friendship is for (Oh)
If you can't work this equation
then I guess I'll have to show you the door
There is no need to say you love me,
It would be better left unsaid


keep thkin bout tat incident
GAWD wat hav i've been thkin
i knw it was comin
i knew it
true there was tension
but its wasnt tat strong
....
am i tat fickle ?
sean was askin whether we're gonna get it on
i was like NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
n then i hid under e umbrella
i like him
but nt tat kind whereby
i'll keep droolin over him
or break my leg
n climb 4 storeys jus to
gain his sympathy
...
its jus odd
we're nt compatible
AT ALL
he's petty
i'm stubborn
its jus a disaster
so we're cool
....
omg
wat am i thkin
[ hyperventilatin in e shoe box ]


i luv tat [ white] headphones
went to 6 stores island wide to get it......but now there's stock again...i'm broke...super ironic


N-dae celebration was short

n sweet

jus e way i lik it [^-----------------------^]

basically

lost a lung for screamin out 4 sok thend durin e

parade

lost another lung durin sing along

[ jus luv my class we were e only pple to stand n sing....n then everyone followed]

n then we did e CONGA

around and across e stage

hahaa

[ saw u starin at me again.....

how much do u wanna hurt me....

i;ve been idiotic enough

i wont fall for it again ]



trim moi hair at sean's place

i suck so bad at chinese

wateva e guy say i kept noddin my head

n then he said i was easy-going

[ mental head slap ]

N HE HAD BOOBS

runie i thk u met ur match



went to tat idiots house at4

lookin like e bride of frankinstein

lost another cat fight [urgh]

died at pool

i'm e only idiot

hu shoots e white ball


in [ squared ]

wow

n yea

i won once

obviously he gave chance

but

i shall now take a moment for myself

walked frm tat shoppin centre

all e way back to his house

i dun get it

i've been doin these retarded walks often

but still cant pass my 2.4

omg.....seriously need a beer

n then u said u were thkin of forgivin me

after me buyin a present

....really need a beer

omg finally
finally some hapiness
in my shit hole life
thank god
........
firstly.....he forgiv moi YAY
[ i knw u were starin at me u jerk HA no balls to talk to me right take tat u ass ]

2nd.....found out tat inputin too many wrong passwords in ur hp will cause it to hang
not a bimbo nymore YAY

3rd......found out i'm not e only person hu swallowed a live fly be4 YAY

4th......tat idiot teachin me pool tmr YAY

but the thing tat made my day was
when we saw a used condom
in e bushes
n then gina went to pick it up



there's always a time
when u kinda hate urself
for doin fucked up things
for fucked up pple
for no fucked up reason

yep...this is one of e time
cant believe it
i beat up myself for nights
cried for a night
wanted to buy a makeup present tat costed 89 bucks [chocs]
i even interviewed 3 guys
to try n find e best solution
to make up e prob

went around askin opinions
ok so here r e statistics




I WANT THIS SO BADLY I"VE BEEN LOOKIN ALL OVER>>>BUT ITS
169 bucks frm zara.......i want it so much.....

my crew............wheee..pelvis


i'm such a screw up



cant do nythin right



i was so eager for this dae



its like



today was supposeld my official



day to set foot in



a s'pore club



[went to e malaysia ne b4 n it stinks]



but nooooooooooooooo



god hates me



it jus didnt went out right







met runie n sean



for shoppin



runie jus sprang out frm e ground



ooooooooooooo



tat idiot lied to me



said he wasnt comin....jackass



haha was happy u turned up



damn it



sean we hafta postpone our date



lets go eggin nex time







dun u jus hate it



when e thing u wan most doesnt pops up



n e tings u hate like hell



jus keep appearin right



at ur nose







wanted a jacket



but nooooooooooooo



everythin was bloody expensiv



screw u gst increase







was plannin to go DXO wit



3 frenz



yep



it got screwed



n its all my fault



.....really really feel like shootin myself







it was very messy



cuz we all couldnt agree on time



we were all over e place



1 of them got pissed



n then runie and sean gt pissed



n then i got pissed.....







so wateva



jus let it go



met him at bugis



n we were playin wit his friend



[u knw e shoot sarcastic remarks...high sch drama thing]



yeeeeeeea



so like his friend was dagglin his jacket



[guess she cant stand him tooo lol]



so i jus fling it down



..sooooooo



he jus stared n i stared back



his friend was laughin



n like yea



all e while i was playin



didnt knw he was pissed [ bimbo]



so he jus took e jacket



n walked out







ooooooooooooooook



runie n sean



were actually stalkin me



thk god



cuz if they didnt



i would've jus died there



sorry J*



i knw we dragged u to dxo wit us



but eventually cancelled



cuz of e arguement



sorry......



so sorry







i was really on e verge of tears



really felt shitty



thk god for best frenz



R n S were jus sayin forget guys like him



but i cant



it was my fault



tried callin but keeep gettin diz







sean actually confronted me n



persuade me to go dxo



but



when i reached



e show jus ended







i jus hate myself so much



i screwed it all



i missed my bro's performance



lost a friend



piss off another



wastage 36 bucks on tix i didnt use



[ yea i paid for them 2]







sean cheered me up by goin window shoppin

WANTED TO BUY CHOCS FRM CHOZ FOR HIM
in a way of sayin srry [he likes chocs dun ask y]
but sean hates him like hell
n he'll literally kill
me if i did

.....



is it jus me or i cant get along wit rich guys



cuz this is e same situation



when cus* diz me



exactly e same



...



day be4 we were gettin along fine



now its totally over



....



i'm so pathetic







u said our friendship was over



i dun thk it is



but there's nothin i can do



to change wat had happened



so its ur life



ur decision



jus wanna let u knw



this is nt wat i wanted