its true i'm over u
stopped thinkin bout ur smile
stopped thinkin bout ur lame jokes
stopped thinkin bout the memories
but its impossible to
erase ur presence
every corner i see u
everywhere i turned u'll be there waitin 4 acknowledgement
but i dun care nymore
its best to let it rest
maybe someday we'll start a new
but not this day
not when my heart still feels unsure
of wat u r to me


didnt blog much these days
cuz class has been sooooooo bimbotic
its startin to be real
freaky....

LATEST NEWS

omg
my eyecandy knows me
...well i thk he does
its like whenever he sees me
he will smile n his eyes will linger
like tat kind of i know u stare
freaky.....
haha...EYES

lianna helped trim my hair
n its fabulous
owe her a really big present
she looked so pro
i jus cant help brustin into laughter
hahaaz
hmm she likes frogs....
....guess i'll need a trip to e pond

hahaz
nic's still crushin over her crush
its sooooooo fun to watch
her act like a girl girl
when he walks past
she like bowl us over to e opposite
direction frm which he is walkin
haha
luv u girl

canteen food really suck
so bad
e clique started makin our own lunch
so basically we had
tunas for e whole week
hahah love tuna
today is tuna wit mayonnaise
mmmmmmmmm
luv u gurls n thanx

hmmm
jus found out
i still had my ex's grasshopper wit me
...u knw u make a grasshopper shape out of a leaf....some thai thing
yea still hav it
knw its right to throw it away
but its heartless to do so
i mean
it took some time n effort right

i mean look
when u break up
its like....love his frenz hate the guy
so its e same as
love the presents hate the guy

i've got this friend
when she broke up wit her stead
she threw out
a human sized teddy bear
tat he imported frm japan
n costed bout 600 bucks
c'mon
do u knw how long
those slave kids frm china worked
to sew tat bear
n u hav no idea
how many sheeps died
to stuff it up
but i mean
at least donate it or somethin
hav a heart
spread the love

n aids for tat manner


hmmm
i'm jus laughin out loud now
hahahaha
dad got so scared
he checked in on me
every 5 seconds
ok
found out my ex-crush
was attached
so tats y he started
avoidin me
hahahahaaha
n then i saw her comment
n kept laughin

was imaginin
him being called a dear
hahahaha
jus hilarious
kim thought i was weird
tat i was happy instead of sad
tat he has a girl

but i mean
he's jus a crush
he's not anythin to me
so why feel sad
more ever i'm over him
haha
[new eyecandy]
i'm jus so relieve
i finally found out his attitute change
so i dun needa feel troubled nymore
hhaahaha
DEAR
hahahaha


is it tat hard to trust someone

u wake up in e mornin
n hope tat its not true
look in e mirror
while it stares back at u
peep out the window
n gaze at e skies
wonderin wats happenin
between ur lives

we were taught to
trust ur feelings but
not the person
cuz a person can lie
his thoughts n actions
differ in opinion
u showed me e door
u gave me the vibes
but all this talk bout u
is jus not right

shd i trust the words
of voices overhead
or shd i trust ur actions
tat left nothin unsaid

is it so hard.....to say ur feelings
is it so hard.....to express oneself
...i wanna knw e truth
dun walk away
cuz i'm standin right here
i wanna hear it frm u
your real feelings
dun wanna lie nymore
dun wanna hate
dun wanna do stupid things
tat only i can create

used to like u
but it wasnt enough


crappy day in sch as usual
was meetin clapton for breakfast at 7
....so told my mama
to wake me up a bit earlier




hahaz was actually dizzin u in chem class
cuz thought u were an ass
wit moodswings
but u were so bloody nice today
so felt ashamed
...n tat was when
u gav me tat smile
[blown over]
feel lke rippin ur mouth off
luv ur smile haha


me and sha bein retarded



never been so fuckin angry be4
so bloody fuckin angry tat
i had goosebumps
n my teeth were shakin
nt jokin
its so pathetic
i feel like such an idiot
we trusted u
ok sure hell lot of pple hate u be4
i only felt tat u hav no sense of responsibility
but now i fuckin hate u
i jus hav nothin to say
i'm speechless
26 BUCKS
count them
i'm nt gonna be satisfied by this
someone's house is gonna burn down
...
07B1 FOREVA


is it so hard jus to express
one's feelings
or even jus say sorry
when all u wanna
do is start a conver

i tried gettin close to u
i tried to understand
i tried to stop
this infaturation

but its over
FINISHED
BURNITO

cant believe it
todae was some anti-guy day
i met 3 idiots
all wit diff personalities
but same arrogance

1st was T.S
oh yea every gurl knw him
the oh so sweet
so kind guy
who ruined my life
once i stepped toe inside M.I
was starin at me
wit those
wonderin wats she doin now eyes
so i jus look away
HA
take tat

2nd was e chem guy
wonder wats his prob
i said e correct ans
n he was like NO no no
2 min later
i was correct so i jus
slapped him on e back
n said see
in those fun way...like we do in class
n he became bitchy
n said
"u didnt even talked to me
walao"
n like afterwards
sha was askin e teachers name
n he was again
sayin
"its PHUA la "
in some arrogant / very annoyed
tone
urgh

and lastly
marcus
srry for sayin u're normal
cuz ur fuckin att
is one of a kind
dizzin my best frenz aint enough
u jus had to act like nothins wrong
...i knw
u saw me in e mornin
IGNORED me
but in e noon
u shouted out
"HEY HELLO"
like its ok

how am i supposed to react
u broke my heart in every way
cried for u in mgt
cried for u in chem
cried for u in gp
cried for u throughout e whole night
n ironically
i dun knw why i'm cryin
maybe cuz i thought u're a great person
or i'm jus sensitive
or i dun knw
i admit i really like u
truely
even now
but it has to stop
i cant pretend nothin happened
cant keep tellin myself nothins wrong
forgav u be4 but not now
guess its e end
cuz i doubt u're ever approach me for me again


us at runie's house








u're an ass
freakin retarded ass
now i truely understand
rich guys are all bastards
amen to tat

You've Got It Bad For Him

For better or worse, you've always got your friend on the brain. If he digs you too, this could be a very good thing. If not, at least you tried! You've got to make a move and find out. You might discover that he's been pining away for you as well.

omg i totally AM crushin on him...ooooooooooooo kinky

Your Depression Level: 92%

You seem to be severely depressed. You should seek immediate attention from your physician. Depression can be cured - you just need to take the first step.

yep i'm freakin depressed
hate my life

Your Drag Queen Name Is:

Zsa Zsa LaHore

haha hi my name is HORE without e W haha


still hesitating bout love
there's always a controversy
pple gettin stabbed
gossips everywhere

man u gotta love high school


ok i'll be straightforward
ever since tat day
i jus kinda got a rush
[of feelings u perverts....]
it was like one day
i was sayin he was
totally not my type
and its still true
i still find him boring

but i jus started to thk bout him
started thkin wat would
it be like bein wit him
kissin him
or jus a blind date
it was disastrous
was startin to get chest pains again
[u knw when u get emotional u feel like u're bein stabbed]
n i was avoidin him ......
but at e same time
wanna meet him
wow
i'm like some naive kid
waitin for my kiss
...its like double dutch
u're jus sittin there thkin
when am i goona get it
when am i gonna get it
when am i gonna get it
OH YES I"M GETTIN KISS WEEEEEEEEEEEEE

so i was practically an idiot wit a crush


for like 1 1/2 days
muaahhahaa
it started when i was
dreamin bout bein wit him
i jus remembered my 4 previous steads
n i was like wats gonna be diff
its gonna be casual dating
hav arguements cuz
my strict parents dun wanna let me out
be bitchin bout him to my gurls
blah blah

but i finally realised it was nothin
when i showed my bro his pics
n then he was stranglin me
sayin
wat the hell is wrong wit u
he's so normal so common
ok he dances
but its mordern dance....
its not like poppin or locking
n u always said
u wan a guy whom is special
take u to dance lessons
than slackin around
take u to e zoo instead of a movie
buy u kinky stuff
rather than flowers n soft toys
...........................
............................
................................

n it was so true
so damn true
it jus gonna be
another heartbreak affair
guess i like him cuz either
i was deprived
or i jus wondered how
it would be like datin again
i'm such an idiot
...totally


once again another bimbotic outin which was last min
and once again runnie was late
and once again we've plan to bowl but somehow didnt
and once again i brought socks for nothin

ahhh cant get enough of them
u knw i keep gettin this prob
no matter how much i curl my lashes
they jus go back normal after 1 hour or less
my mascara always smudges
n i'll always look like a panda
...fur nt included
girls tips pls

we took e train to dhoulby gaut
then decided pasir ris
was tooooooooo far
so took e train to city hall
wanted to go china town
so we took e escalator up
but then decided to go bugis
so we took e escalator down

luv bugis
it contains everythin i love and hate
hate e pple there love e shops there

walked to marina square frm there
followed by a walk to raffles city
n then a train back to dhoulby gaut
jus to walk along orchard again
n then we jus walked all
e way to great world city
i was practicallly kissin my bed
when i reached home

met marcus along e way
he jus called to hang out wit me
cuz he was bored
....WHY...WHY ME ?
he was obviously tryin to run away frm me
when he found out i was wit my frenz
but runnie wanted to meet him
jus cause he's tall
i hav a fetish for packs
sean has also a fetish for packs
runnie has fetish for anythin
tat is tall,clean shaven and chubby
amen
throughout e day
runnie was stalkin every guy
who was tall
freaky......
its like hey a tall guy
and he speeds off wrigglin after e guy

"sean and his pelvis"
u knw when i walk i tend to
swing my arms and possibly legs
so i always kinda hit sean's balls
but i dun feel anythin though
...maybe cuz he dont hav any.......
oooooooooooooooooo
so e whole day
whenever i'm nex to sean he would like say


me and arun figured sean was born weird
cuz he came out frm e wrong side of e womb
arun thought he came out legs 1st
i thk its more like he came out side-ways
ouch
but most likely
he jus came out like a canon ball




i can't take it anymore
i can't take in anythin else
i'm up to my limit
was it so hard for a request ?

i didn't do well for my mid year
my results were
A B B E D
it stinks
n i wanna do better
i knw i can
cuz i like to learn
i like e feelin of doin well
tat sense of acheivement
tat feelin tat says see i'm nt worthless

i wanna take e diploma course
it means no more sats...no more holidays
but i dun care
i'm single i'm a loner its fine
but i wanna giv up chinese
in order to cope i had to
but is it so hard ?

i tried
i took classes
i beat up myself wit books
e most i can do is pass
but this is diff
i cant do it anymore
i'm worn out
so dun tell me is jus cause i dun study
u dun knw how i feel
gettin lock in a room wit books
feelin weak n tired everyday
wakin at 6 reachin home at 7 past 9

no one cares
parents dun wanna argue cuz its a hasssle to call
teachers dun wanna help cuz its only a student
a student hu tried 16 yrs to do somethin she could nt

i'm tired
its ok none of my dreams come true
i cant go to japan in my teenage years
i cant go to dance sch cuz i had no cash
i cant afford branded clothes
i cant go to christina aguilera's concert
i cant be an air stewardess
i cant go for surgery for my teeth
i cant see e whole
i cant marry a foreigner [dad said he'll disown me]
but jus a simple request
n it couldnt be granted

pple thought it was ok
they made fun of my teeth
i knw they're ugly so dun rub it in
they didnt take me seriously when i said i would kill to go japan
they didnt think i was when i was depressed
cuz i was smilin through my feelings

maybe cuz it was fate tat my life is a shithole
i didnt go to church enough
i didnt pray enough
i didnt help e old lady cross e street
i was always a dollar short in e charity drive
no point makin arrangements
when i die
cuz i already knw where i'm goin
even if hell dun exist
my afterlife would be as shitty as now
perhaps dying is less painful as now
going through meaningless days
to a place i dun wanna be
to a job i dun wanna work
to a guy i dun wanna marry
life is pointless now
knwin dreams wont come through
wats e point of everythin




now i really wished tat i was a guy

i mean i WANNA GO ARMY

its so cool

i like bein tortured [physically mind u]

i wanna sing songs

n i wan tat kind of brotherhood thing ya know

so we only had to go for one period

n then hop our asses on e bus to tekong

at e canteen








us at e harbour toilet...me and sha























































































































i hate myself
i'm so freakin fat
i mean i hav bat wings
look look...see when i flap my arms u can see e fats bouncin
maybe u cant see
but i can feel e gravitational pull
wat u thk of tat huh ?

to my cousin kat :
i hate u
look at u...u're freakin thin
u look like a soda bottle u ass
now i'm e fat one in e family
har dee har har...weeeeeeeeeeeee
i gotta lose weight man....the last time i excercise
was when i gt locked out of e house

geez...can someone bring me out to run
i need motivation
put a hottie in front and i'll run like a bull
he better be wearin tights
oooo {fan}


me darren and jon
my bro and brandon


ok it is a fact i'm e most bimbotic person
among my cousins

those around my age cuz my grandma was too productive givin me a hell lot of cousins

we compared how many times we gt
lock out of e house and
i beat them wit a record of 6 within this year
and its nt even half of e year
god i'm hopeless
bless my soul

so basically it was our grandmamais b.dae
she's 84
woohoooooo power to u mama
she don't look a year over 70

..there wasn't any crabs.....damn it all
at 1st it was jus me and jon
the big boys were out as usual
jon : we're so bored
me : yea...totally
we started to sunk lower in our seats
when we both forgot one of our uncles name
but then we did e airline thing
and jus SMILE all asses through

brandon had another make over
last year he was all bad ganster-ass
spiky hair and boxera tat go until there and flowery BOOTS
muahaha kinky...SPANK ME
this year he was a mop...nuff said
now he's L
tat fair face and skiny jeans ooooooooooooo

we were still bored...so we make racists remarks
hahaz arent we all
oh ya then brandon this time when he went to malaysia
he went to pee
but there was no urinals in e toilet
dun ask me why too
but he had to pee
so he saw this tub of water next to e basins
so he jus peed inside
.....moments later
he found out that e tub of water
is used in malay prayer
as in before prayin pple wash their face in it
....and he peeed inside

he is so gonna burn in hell

nothin much to talk cuz we keep talkin bout race
haha we were bored alright
so til then
wait for my nex blog
on the "marilyn's air time show"
weeknights 10 til 10 pm
on bimboticasia


i dun even know where to begin
its bout my relaionship...again
i've been wit this guy for 3 years
but he's been wit a fake....{read it in my othr blog}
after e movie
i jus had this feelin...i need to stop this
i've been thinkin bout it a year
n i was too scared to do it
but i finally did
...bein out wit my frenz tat day makes me realise...i wan my frenz back
i jus wanna be wit them...tats where i belong
honestly...i stead wit him cuz
i was lonely and i needed someone
tat time my parents were strict
no good frenz watsoever
i needed someone to rely on...to comfort and pamper me
i needed a support
cuz i was weak
i'm always afraid...
afraid tat i'm late
afraid of doin badly
afraid of pple
cuz i thought if i screw up i'll be alone....
but now i'm less afraid
i'm startin to be late wit less panickin
exams arent scary
n i aint afraid of my parents.....
i've grown
so maybe tats why i dun feel for him nymore
i stop listenin to him
i mean i'm even lyin to pple sayin
he's nt my stead cuz i'm afraid tat they'll look down on me for lovin someone who doesnt love me for who i am
he wans me to be common
he wants me wit long hair
normal clothes
descent talkin
sometimes if i dun play by his rules
he'll jus get angry and ignore me
but pretend e nex day tat nothin happened

i'm afraid
after breakin up
i'm afraid
cuz i'm without a pillar who was there for 3 years
for me to rely on
for me to find if i'm alone
i still dun wanna be alone
so i'm gonna rely on someone else
...friends....
my new pillar
will u be mine ?


urgh love outings like these...
everything will go wrong if u're out wit a bimbo, a retard and a homo
seanni had free tics to transformers...ooooooooooo
wonder wat he did to get those....holy holy hell....
muahahahaha
nyways mmoi arun and sean were goin

meetin was at 5.30
done makeup and scrubbin by 5.15
god i'm late....for once..YAY..FINALLY
5.20 : msg runn say i'll be late for 5 min
5.22 : ooo forgot my glasses
5.25 : found out my chanel peppers dun match my fat face
5.26 : i'll jus bring it along nyway
5.30 : shit forgot to put perfume
....y do i alwys forget to put scent in my ass ? i'm hopeless
5.45:.....i'm e earliest...

me and runnie can be long lost twins
its like we thk almos alike
like we both think sean looks like a donkey
he said donkey i said ass
we both think y e pple were so stupid
to not kill megatron be4 he started to defrost
n we were both wishin a hot guy will seat nex to us
turns out to be a women who laughs like a man
i'm serious
one time i couldnt take it and jus stare at her in e eye
....i mean god she's a man.....
bet she's hairy all over too

sean was real cute and himbotic
its like whenever we talk bout somethin he'll jus spoil it ya knw
we were talkin bout dance
arun : i wanna take ballroom dancin
me : yea salsa is hot
sean : isn't tat indian guy singing hot ?

n then we talked bout ballet
me : i hate ballet cuz it makes u flat
arun : really ?
sean : [pause]...guys or girls
imagin a guy bein flat in e balls

runnie gt pissed out wit me
cuz he asked why of all countries s'pore wanna play wit aus in a sports match
me :...em...cuz...australia provides....apples ?
arun's mom was bowlin over wit laughter

after e movie we got lost in SMU
n then we walked to mac at suntec
we were talkin bout balls and penis
bout it bein hard on e outside while soft in e inside
i mean
at calm status a dick would be soft right ?
when it erects its hard
n then runn ask me a stupid question
whether vagina's are soft on e inside and hard on e outside
i mean u expect me to stuff my hand inside to feel whether its soft ?

bimboes
oh ya tat day was e 1st day at cathay cineplex for me
shut tup i knw
i hav no life
and then i thought the lifts were actually a store
after e movie
runnie started jigglin on e escalator and e guy nex to him jus stared
after tat we walked one round each floor
jus to loose him but he stilll ends up nex to run nie
hilarious