confessions of a monroe

butterfly gestures

2008-12-15T06:17:00.000-08:00

dun get the way my parents think
its a mix between stupid or really bizzare
they dun allow me
to sleep over anywhere anytime
but they allow me
to reach home late
n stay at chalets overnight

like wat's the fuckin diff ???
reachin home late
around 4am
is jus 2 hours frm stayin overnight
i'm nt fuckin payin for taxi fare

isnt chalet same as houses ??
damn maybe i shd
start stayin over at "chalets"
for a month

shopping for labels

2008-12-08T07:02:00.000-08:00

went back to e kovan area again

wheeeeee

this time we were e only douchebags there

so we had all

the pillows to ourselves

yayyyy lol

had a pina colada

its pineapple with rum and coconut milk

but all i could taste

was retarded milk

so it tasted like nutz

hate it....

nikki backed out last min...again

wanted to burn her house down

hoho

its ok babe i still love u.....

been going out e whole

week

super exhausted

haven start studying

haiz

here n back again

2008-12-03T21:36:00.000-08:00

whohoooo we went to GENTING !!!!

YEA BABY

was hoping for thailand

but my parents r chicken shit uurgh

nyways we were supposed

to leave on thurs mornin

so jintong stayed over

at moi house e day before

we decided to ton

so we spent the night

runnin around jumping fences hoho

n then he gt hungry

n i had to cook for him.....infront of him

but i didnt spill or explode anythin

so i'm proud of myself YEEESAH !!

n then we gt tired at 4 am

so we slept on the sofa

until my dad came n kicked us up

we drove to genting

faster than coach by 2 hours

it wasnt easy

2 pple in front

n 4 pple behind (my bro his gf me n jt)

n it was PAINFUL...

my left side was squashed by my bro's fats

my right side was poked by jt's bones

haiz

was pissed off cuz we ate at AMW

[s'pore dun hav anymore...the fuckers]

n then they did not hav rootbeer....

WTF

its their trademark n they dun hav it !!!!

its like KFC wif no chicken

wat r they gonna sell ? breaded flour ?

the road up to genting was like

initial D

so my dad acted like a speed racer

drifting from side to side

dad n jt were enjoying it

while i was trying hard not to puke

after checkin in

[boys 1 room girls 1 room]

we ate n then we PARTY !!!!

we played

ARCHERY

BOWLING

POOL

ARCADE

N DID A HELL LOT OF SHOPPING !!!!

btw i won jt

in everything

muahahahaha

winnning the dota n counterstrike expert

is really interesting

we went to the outdoors

on e 2nd day

took only 5 rides cuz

it started to rain

n jt was scared shitless of rollercoasters

lol

i only truely understand that

after forcing him on e rollercoaster

poor thing.....me...

haha n then they

my dad n jt challenged

each another to see who

has the greater fear of heights

n then

jt took e viking

n dad took the cable car

....both survived.....

e cable car was gorrrgeeeouus

its nt like cheap skate sentosa

its about 20 mins

n beautiful scenes

of the forest n horizen n clouds

u could actually feel n taste the clouds

i tried to hug it lol

but was depressed

when i see no bloody SUN BEAR

LIARS !!!!

ohohoh we saw some MI pple

it was the hockey boys captain

n his clique

n they recognised me YAY

real happy to seee them man

we also had a family challenge

in POOL

dad was the champion as usual

2nd : jintong

3rd : max

4th : ME

5th : mom

6th : Geraldine

mom was laughin whenever jt pops

in the white ball

his trademark i suppose

all in all we had a great time

if i go on this blog will never end

sorry its nt so clear
i'm at bottom left in blue
right nex to me is jt pukin

RETARDED FACTS

the case of the mysterious socks

when we woke up

the 2nd morning

we found a pair of adidas socks

that didnt belong to any of us

which was weird cuz

who the hell wanna give us socks ????

nyways my mom kept them

....if my house has voodoo....i thk i know y

rhythem of the night

the 3 guys slept side by side at night

walls were thin so i could hear

n they were sleeping in harmony lol

dad provided the constant snoring beat

jt and max took turns

sneezing alternately

waaaaaaay coool

its eggy time

on e last day

we went to the temple

wif e 10 storey high buddha statue

jt was sooo impress wit their

homemade cha ye dan

tat he ate 4 eggs in a row

let the flames begin

2008-11-26T07:14:00.000-08:00

was at the botanic gardens
wit my clique jus now
plus nora n lily's sis
n my precious
little baby hamsters

we were picnicking !!!!

we had food everywhere
she spilled drinks everywhere
i spilled ice n beehoon everywhere
n ants were all over e place
muahahahaha

n then lily kicked e ball
n it rolled all the way
...into the swan lake
loll
n we started panicking
n we kept throwin e life buoy
into the lake
threw stones
n kept askin
help from the
turtles
fish
n wateva seems to be in the pond
in the end
we finally managed to get
the frickin ball
by using a boat's oar
we randomly found
from somewhere
in the bloody jungle
hoho
it took us a friggin hour !!!!

nyways going genting tmr
YAY !!!!!
wit my dear little jintong
n my stupid parents
n stupid bro n his girlfriend
hohoho
be back on sat !!!

glassed frames

2008-11-20T09:45:00.000-08:00

its okay jus stay

life of a sunflower

2008-11-20T06:41:00.000-08:00

being planted in the shadows
away from the sun
allows u to get by everyday
unnoticed
unheard

being placed in the sun
gives u a sense of warmth
a sense of comfort
but little do pple know
a place in the sun
has darker shades

thats y it's always better to be alone
when no one understands
nothin happens
its peaceful
living the life of a shadow
away from the sun

waitin on the world to change

2008-11-18T21:50:00.000-08:00

lol jus skipped hockey trainin
me n lily got our butts
all the way to delta
in the weee mornin at 8 am
we made it all the way to
e entrance
n then
we chicken out
n ran away
muahahahaaha

jus finisehed 5 jap dramas n 1 movie
in 4 days
my eyes r dying
n my ass is stoned
so my rating are :

Gokusen 3/5 (no romance)

hana kimi 5/5 (i LOVE this show i watched it 3 TIMES)

hana yori dango 1 4/5

hana yori dango 2 4/5

hana yori dango movie 2/5 (i fast forward e whole movie BORING)

absolute boyfriend 2/5 (i prefer e comic show sux)

kimi wa petto 2/5 (weird story cute guy)

2008-11-11T03:18:00.000-08:00

Its Lama Time !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dear father for i have sinned

2008-11-07T06:15:00.000-08:00

i hate the way u push me around

its gettin tiring enduring

maybe when u grow up n stop

being so self-centered

n treat me like an actually girlfriend

maybe then will i feel happy

let the rainbow come right be4 the sunshine

2008-11-07T06:09:00.000-08:00

had OP presentation todae

almost died

was freakin nervous since the night before

idiot boyfriend didnt care

he never did

well at least kat was there for me

love u babe

n we concluded tat

alcohol will always be the

best solution to everythin

so drank be4 my presentation

martell hohoho

.........

n it didnt work

BLAST !!!!

nvm

wats done is done

now i'll shall start

puking over chem

muahahahahaha so screwed

white sequins

2008-11-04T01:25:00.000-08:00

somethin really super odd jus occurred
jus bumped into a malaysian gay guy
outside my house
n then he started askin in chinese
being chinese redundent
i said i dun knw as usual

n then he started gettin upset
he was sayin stuff like
he was stranded
his friend wasnt pickin up the phone
he got lost
he asked two pple
one was a china
n then they dissed him
blah blah blah

no offense but gay guys
are able to talk their whole day
in 15 mins when they're upset

n then i felt like he was shootin at me
cuz i didnt wanna help him
[act is cuz i dun knw where he wanna go, its spore !!! so locations in eng !!!!]

so i tried to do somethin
was playin riddles wit him
til i finallyn found out
he wanna walk to boon lay
WALK !!!!!
well he's frm malaysia
so cant blame him if he doesnt knw
how freakin far tat is !!!!
so i told him to take the MRT

n then he asked for money cuz
he lost his wallet
wif his ez link card
and 100 bucks in it
n then i thought
yesssh this guy was a phony

n then be4 i could say anythin
he started repeating his day
for the nex 15 min
n then he started to cry

OMG.....
n then i kinda thk tat maybe it was real

so gave him 5 bucks
n pat him on e shoulder
n shove him to e mrt station

he asked whether i was malaysian
cuz i agreed to help him
hmmmm.....
n then he took my number
n promise he'll pay me back
[ya right]
he stored it in memory
he's nvr calling back

nyways
phony or not
..it was a weird day...

drops of jupiter

2008-10-21T20:54:00.000-07:00

was chattin wit keith on e phone
frm like 11 yil 2 am
hoho
waddling through all the bollocks
and crap talked
we centralised our whole thesis
of the night
to all two-faced pple : pick a side n stay there damnit !!!!
LOL

living by a thread

2008-10-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

sorry haven been uploading
things jus were getting out of hand

what really hurts the most
was bein too close
so much that when they fall
i feel the burn

tat apart
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!
1 year up and running
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE MY JINTONG HOHOHO
annniversary was on 14th October
hoho lover's paradise
BITE ME !!!
we celebrated by having a sports marathon YAY !!!!!!!!

Thrashed him in bowling [86 to 62]
Thrashed him in pool [5 to 3]
both died during swimming [draw]

was damn fun
mostly cuz i won muahahahahaha
i wan this to last
being together so long is seriously a torture
some days u jus wanna get out of it
some days u jus wanna suck it all up
go figure....

was damn sad plus angry
the nex day was promo results
and the school kicked out 1/4
retained 1/4
the rest advance or promote
its so fucking unfair
they said that results only matter
then y are pple leavin due to bad conduct
then wats the point of CCA or contribution
wat does it matter who we are inside or wat we did
the school aint god
it jus aint right

heartbroken-betrayed-disgusted
how am i to react
wat am i suppose to do
when i see u lying there in despair
what can i do...
what can i do.......

this isnt the end of us
the times we shared
the joy we had
i'll cherish the moments when u guys were here
i'll always be there
jus say my name n i'll come runnin

yester years' heartbreak

2008-10-11T19:38:00.001-07:00

if u dun care
jus say wat u will
its better than
wandering through
a guessing game

just a little bit

2008-10-11T19:38:00.000-07:00

bloody hell sprained my neck
last night
cuz we were bobbing our heads
to disturbia in e car
...yes we were high
muahahahaha

chilled out at e bar BOJANGLES
its at e bukit merah shopping centre...i think...
cozy little place wit one bloody pool table
n a fuckin huge tv
everyone there was above 20
n are billiard pros
sick bastards.............
to them hittin four balls in continuosly is average
to me hittin any ball in is a miracle

nyways thrashed runie YAY
n got high on my second glass
hoho i suck
so basically throughout e night
was jus dancin round e pool table to aretha franklin

a levels jus round e corner n i fuckin high.........

the first cut is the deepest

2008-10-09T02:34:00.000-07:00

i dun know wat i wan

its hard to make a decision when
i've everything to lose

if all i want was to be with u
then why am i still so disappointed

sounds of a jamboree

2008-10-08T04:55:00.000-07:00

no matter wat i do
it can never be enough for u

the more i try to protect u
the more my heart bleeds

guess i'm not so strong as a person to be by your side
to always protect u in your hour of need

even if tat is so
there's nothin i can do
i can't change the way i am
we're so close but yet so far
nightmares never end

i wan it to be like before
but now how can it be
when i'm starting to forget the feelings of the past

tonight
i'm starting to want my loneliness back
maybe its better this way
cutting does not do much
there's no other way for me.....

maybe 1 day i'll see colours again

1 litre of tears

2008-09-11T05:52:00.000-07:00

tmr's acc's exam
n i jus spent 6 hours
watchin a drama serial
on youtube
n it was totally worth it
thk i'm gonna throw away
all my sucky tv dramas
cuz this is the shit ...

used two packets of tissues
cuz i kept crying like hell
n worst
ITS BASED ON A TRUE STORY
title is : 1 litre of tears
n it aint like the cheesy dramas
whereby all they do is hug n cry n say i love u
in all diff languages
this is real...
the actors were phenominal
n the lead guy is SMOKING HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT
he jus replaced yamapi by ten folds, hands down..

story is bout this girl
who suffers from spinocerebellar atrophy
an incurable disease due to degeneration of the spinal cord and the cerebellum
patients will stagger durin walking
find it hard to write
difficult in pronoucin words
difficult to measure distances [ex: pickin up stuff]
ultimately bein
unable to walk, talk, see clearly
or bedridden or death
this story is bout aya n how she changed the world

Ryo Nishikido 24 years old, hot as hell wheeeeeeeeeeeeee

secondhanded paedophile

2008-09-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

yay my bloody com is bloody fixed
i can update daily now YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
oh ya nywan wanna play beach volleyball soon ?
cuz the Bishan active thing is up
n everyday i'm seeing hot
sweaty muscular guys
playin beach volley in front of my house
oh hohoho
i love bishan...

exams in 3 days
n i jus started studyin
..cant be bothered
its like a never endin cycle
i wanna go poly now....

oh oh oh
for u online shoppin pple
DUN BE DECEIVED
some blogs sell higher than retail prices
GO CHINATOWN
u can find the exact same clothes there
at e same price or lower
got my jailbird dress there wheeeeee

might be settin up a blogshop
wit sweetie aft exams
cuz there's this old lady we wanna help out
her shops located in CT
her stuff r hot but they aint sellin [cuz no ones around]
so i wanna do this pyramid sales thingy
wit her
it'll be kinda cool i guess
only prob is that
i'll most likely burn down her shop
then do a business
cuz i am clueless as hell on how
to sell freakin stuff....

stop and stare n u're see a different story

18 n LOVINNNN IT !!!

2008-08-28T01:40:00.000-07:00

i'm 18 YAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!

actually was 18 on 22nd aug

but i only got over my hangover

this morn so SHUSH !!!

muahahaha

holy crap

i dun needa sneak into pubs

dun needa sneak into cinemas

i dun need a valid reason to run away frm home

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY

was shoving my ez link

in everyone's face

help bought kim a cig frm 711

me : show ez link...

fat turd : i didnt ask for your ic

me : nar i knw u wanna see it dun u hahahaz

i'm 18 i'm 18 YAYYYY

n then i started runnin round e store

sooooo....practically embarassed myself

outside yishun 711

hohoho

who cares i'm legal jackass

celebrated wit the 4E4 gang on moi b.dae

at vivo...ate kim gary's

n it was smoking hot

ordered the beef ramen

n they gav me ramen wit a sirloin steak dumped inside

believe me i tried cuttin wit the chopsticks

....didnt work....damn...

nyways we had fun

we caught up on stuff

n BLOODY LYNARD STILL OWE ME 16 BUCKS N MY SLIPPERS

haiz....

hang out wit besties

on sun...love u bitches

took care of sweetie on mon

he spread to me so i died on tues

revived on wed wit kim

n died today for GP exam

i wanna eat a cucumber....japanese..

here and back again

2008-08-16T19:09:00.000-07:00

hurrrllloooo !!!

back from hell still in hell hoho

celebrated moi pre-birthday

wit sweetie yesterday YAY !!!!

went fine-dining

and went aboard e SINGAPORE FLYER WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

but first SHOPPPPINNIINNGGGGG muahahahahaha

went to e clark quay shoppin centre [directly above e mrt station]

it was awesome

really really gorgeous shops [xpecially e top]

but no one around hoho

same as kallang leisure mall

am surprise tat malls without commen brands

like baleno or 7-11 or topshop

hav no one there

weeeeeeirrrdd....

nyways i bought......A SOFTTOY YAYYYY

its actually a bdae present for claricia

[u better be happy bitch muahaahaha...kidd la i still love u]

went to sme juju restaurant

n sweetie did his magic touch again

by charming all the china aunties

n we ended having extra free desserts

n they were so sweet n friendly

when they knew it was my bdae

[it was actually pre...but they dun knw hoho]

they gave me an ice cream cake

n a present [mug]

soooooooooooooooooooooooooo

they wanted to sing me a bdae song

but......eh it was embrassing so we decline

e singapore flyer was pretty cool

it actually wasnt high

n the view is like any airplane view

so it wasnt somethin new

n u cant see no FREAKIN JOHOR OR THAILAND

or u see r tiny lights frm them

...stupid government...

e taxi driver was right

we took e taxi frm marina to e flyer

n all the way he was asking the govt to die

like 6 times

i was dying of laughter in the back

sweetie was jus stunned...

went back home

n we had a ben n jerry's cake

YAY YAY YAY YAY

sure was damn fun

jus saddenning we hav to get bck

to sch now....haiz...

HELP !!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-09T03:20:00.001-07:00

people really need your help NOW

am suppose to buy birthday outfit

BY TMR !!!

dunno which one to choose

pls help

joy

Marianne

confusion

paris

I know i'm a sucker for Togas

PLS PLS PLS help

crushcrushcrush

2008-08-05T01:12:00.000-07:00

at ben and jerry

he said : hey miss lady how ya doin
she said : close your mouth turkey boy !!!

me : (hidin behing my cone dying of laughter)

wheeling round the roses

2008-07-26T19:50:00.000-07:00

jus found out my bro has a blog

of all creatures.....

so e first thing i did....

.............

SPAM SPAM SPAM MUAHAHAHAAHAA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n straight away he knw it was me

geeez how the hell ???

was out sinister shoppin

at orchard wit gang

its been a while...

these days online shoppin

i need a butt massage damn...'

saw a metallic bustier dress in mango

$115

saw an emo swatch watch

$99

punk outfit frm pull and bear

$64.90

lingerie frm inner affair

$125

i need a job....

gettin this nex week

its more like for fun but its cute

cant really see

but its frm

http://skeenster.livejournal.com/1876.html

custom made shoes check it out

promos in 1 month

n i cant be bothered

felt bad for makin sweetie feel sad

cuz he cant acc me to buy e outfit

oh well he has more impt things to deal wif

for e moment

so jus gonna wait n see....

2008-07-25T04:47:00.000-07:00

saw her profile
n for the first time i felt sadness
i dun thk things hav gotten out of hand
n i dun thk it was jus another misunderstanding

all i know was tat
this should'nt hav happened in the first place
n since it had
it should hav been resolved much much earlier

if he didn't lie

if i had noticed earlier

maybe...

but i guess all we can do now
is move forward ??

nothin gain nothin loss nothin cherished nothin perished

twisted metals of rock

2008-07-24T09:40:00.000-07:00

was runnin round sch
til like 9 everyday this week
night studies hav started
n i'm luuurvin it
for once the sch looks pretty
maybe cuz its dark n u cant see
e bad paint jobs
but hu cares right ?

was studyin wit sweetie
the garden leading to e container classes
was so freakin pretty
wit e lightin
i jus wanted to be a toad fairy
n prance around the fungus
....n then i tripped down the stairs
n twist my ankle

god help me

....
sch system really really sucks
like who the fuck
wana pay food via cashcard
who in a decent mind
would thk its not
problematic to keep
depositin cash n withdrawin them
every single fuckin day

its like the school
is more concern bout
the payment of food rather than
the quality or quantity given

nice job fuck-cipal....
we're all gonna start packagin frm home
again...

promos in 1 month
n i'm feelin the fever

its amusing
.........
so sick n tired of this
jus get it over with....

miracle crash of hope

2008-07-16T02:01:00.000-07:00

whoopeedoo
my cousins are headin to
BAli nex month
sucking the glorious sand
n wearin coconut bras
while i'm stuck moonin in school
kat u better rmb to bring back somethin holler !

things r startin to turn around
hopefully its jus gonna be alright
its best when things r forgotten

had fun playin scissors paper stone
wit e security guard
best way to kill time waitin for buses

writings on the sand

2008-07-10T07:01:00.000-07:00

sweetie got hurt real badly yesterday
jus some wacko
punched him 5 times in the eye
creepy shit...

he's much better now
thank godddddd
but he rather stay at home
n used up his mc's
....lazy ass....

it was seriously ironic
i only found out bout e incidents
aft he was sent to the hospital
n the innocent me
was at his house at tat time
hammering the PS2 controller
with his sister...
i'm such a worthless girlfriend
shoot me....

so rushed to the hospital wit his mom
...
....
.....
n then we got lost
....
....
ITS NOT MY FAULT [shut up runie i can see u giggling]
bloody NUH was bloody fng huge
so we ran around clueless
walked round buildings
took almost every bloody elevator
rode to every bloody floor
n every nurse hav diff directions
so was practically dying
til we saw this liver surgery nurse (wateva she is)

nurse : oh to get to A& E u hav to go all the way to the end

of the building , take the elevator to1st floor

turn left, walk straight

turn right n then right again

me : .....are u fucking kidding me ?

rest is personal

but it aint gonna end here

like hell it would ! !!!

sooooooooooo

am cooking him lunch this sat

n if he survives

he haves the life of a cat....

end of the road

2008-07-09T00:27:00.000-07:00

so sick of everything
i'm jus not happy
cant stand it
i dun wanna care
everything sux
pple dun care
they never did
so why is it so hard to accept....

2008-07-05T08:16:00.001-07:00

I never told you to think of me when you hold her or kiss her.
I never told you to love me
and I never told you to let me go and give up on everything we had.
Life is so Ironic.

bo internet

2008-07-03T21:57:00.000-07:00

no internet access
no blog update sorry
dad used all his bon bons
to pay for my bro's hostel fees
to keep his sorry ass far away frm home
so no cash for internet
....sad...

nyways watched
shaolin girl yesterday
with TENS of pple
actually there was only
5 pple in e cinema
so we did it like cleopetra
jus lied
on 3 seats
n watch e movie

kallang leisure park was sure ooooloooo
like duh u can only reach there by bus 14 or 7
but it is sooooo damn nice
theres like
ice skating rink
cinema
bowling alley
arcade
n niiiiiiice weird shops
me n sweetie
were havin fun playin
wit the butt pencil holder
tat moans whenever u stick it in
....kinky....

2008-06-29T03:45:00.000-07:00

meaningless

so sick of everything

ULTIMATE POLL

2008-06-16T08:32:00.000-07:00

What I Want In A Man

How He Should Look...

Taller or Shorter?:

duh taller

Long Hair, Short or Medium Length?:

i adore the jap kind of medium shagged hair......

Dark Hair or Light?:

DARK ooooooooooo like dark caramel mmm yummy...I LOVE HAIR

What color eyes do you like?:

green they're alluring

Fuzzy or Unfuzzy face?:

u mean a hamster ???

Earrings?:

studs...

Tatoos?:

small ones r fine...no koi fish or kats or any other stupid tattoos ah bengs hav...like the other day i saw a bamboo pole....

Strong Hands or Soft Ones?:

STRONG...feelin their firm hard grip on ur waist givs security....soft hands r more like playdough

Chest Hair?:

oh god no !!!!

Back Hair?:

JESUS no !!!

Trimed Pubic Hair or Shaved Off?:

trimed....totally bald seems underdevelop

Attached or Unattached Ears?:

attached.....unattached = buddha

Broad Shoulders?:

hot yea !!!

Small Waist?:

ewww no....i rather muscled waist

A Little Extra Around the Middle?:

wat middle ???

Inny or Outty Belly Button?:

def inner

Circumsized or Uncircumsized?:

i love skin

Hairy or Not Hairy Legs?:

not hairy...its less distracting

Now, His Personality...

Should he love You or His Mother more?:

ME DUH !!!!

Should he be able to cry in front of you?:

yes

Should you be able to cry in front of him?:

i cry infront of anyone

Should he always open doors for you?:

nar it shows i'm weak

Should he always pay for Dinner?:

sweet but no....i pay my own bills....mostly

Should he tuck you in at night?:

YES tat'll be so cute.....it nvr happens though....they jus dump u a bunch of pillows n go back playin DOTA...

Should he return your phone calls immediatly or when he has time?:

when he has time duh.....

Should he devoted to only you?:

nar...frenz r important too

Should he stop talking to Ex Girlfriends for you?:

it would feel better unless he really wants to talk to her....then i'll jus bitchslap her in the face aftwards

Should he work hard to please you?:

not really....natural is best

Should he always follow your advice?:

at least listen

Now, His Morals...

Would he visit with an ex girlfriend who's in trouble?:

70 % ya

Would he be able to lie to you without a guilty conscience?:

nope...tats y i love him

Would he talk about you behind your back?:

YA IT HAPPENED BE4....EVIL !!!!

Would he move away from you for a job?:

i guess so

Would he steal from work?:

nope never

Would he tell on you if you stole from someone?:

nope never.......................................he better not be....

Would he cheat on you?:

.............

Would he dump you if you cheated on him?:

............yes

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satiated yellow stains

2008-06-16T08:19:00.000-07:00

its nice seeing her smile again
after all she've been through
its bytime she deserves to smile again

guys r bastards
amen to that
they hav periods bigger than us
them and their random moodswings
jus encountered 2 this month
retarded
simply retarded beings....[them nt u other guys]

haiz
at least sweetie aint tat bad....[now tat it seems]
i love him to bits n pieces n crumbs
hohoho

I WANNA PLAY POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

absurd situations

2008-06-14T06:08:00.000-07:00

wats the definition of trust
when someone denies your def of it
does it mean u're been betrayed ?
or played ?
or worst...misjudged....

and once tat trust is lost
is it possible to gain it back ?
exactly the way it was ??

if asking a question
bout a person's loyalty
is it a matter of lack of trust
or is it because
there is too much trust between
the two
so much of a bond
tat a person has to ask these qns so as
to substain tat special bond.....

tats wat i wanna know
the fear of askin questions
....
or the fear of the answers
...
which is scarier ??

been thkin a lot
bout Antz questions
bout a month ago
even be4 he asked....i alr knew about them....

the fear of askin
due to the fear of losing such a special bond
but its more of
the fear
MY fear
of the answers

cuz maybe....
i already know about the answers....
n i jus fear
tat it will come true
....

to live a lie in luxury
or
a life filled wit blatant honesty

i wonder which really is paradise...........

Industrial Yellow

2008-06-11T10:11:00.000-07:00

why do things start fallin apart
when u jus barely fix e broken pieces
why whenever a feeling turns in your guts
it would always be a bad one
why when u start to hang your head high again
the same shit pulls it back down once again

my name is marilyn
n i'm sittin
in the same shithole mansionette
tat my parents pay a shitload of money for
causin us to live misearably poor right now

LOL

jus had a feelin for writing books
i'm jus bored haiz.....

nyways "holidays" are ending
like hell it was a holiday !!!!!
studyin all day
rushin to get assgn on time
life stories of s'poreans r gettin common

was jus sayin life sucks
am under a lot of stress frm studyin
plus gettin super irritated wif downturns (other posts)
n my parents r drivin me NUTSO
n when things turn sour....
all my support jus werent there....

sweetie jus started his everyday 24 hrs study marathon
he really needs it btw
i'm low on cash so i cant release shoppin rage
moreever cant go out cuz i'm broke
n i hav split ends

jus kill me someone
really feel like quitting sch
i wanna be happy

nyways feel like changin my
email add
i mean
biteda_big_one
aint tat tempting anymore
although it sounds kinky
but i prefer somethin emo
maybe like

Tasting the fallen @hotmail.com
Action Junkies @hotmail.com
The Leftovers @hotmail.com
Wasted Youth @hotmail.com
Only Heaven Knows @hotmail.com

ny ideas

tag me

grey skies over the morning hue

2008-06-10T06:21:00.000-07:00

jus won sweetie
TWO ROUNDS IN POOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but then he gt mad
n thrash me 4 balls
but whose countin right ?
muahahahaa
i hit the lights again btw
DAMN U ARCHITECTURES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

worst still
couldnt reach one of e balls
so i jus wham myself on e table
n hit e balls face on
....regardless i still love bein short.....
it gives pple a hard time guessin your age

sunday party night was hot
more like a sec sch gatherin
but it was still cool
snuck into BRADDELL_WESTLAKE SEC
at 1 am
was there wif

runie
sean
lynard
lionel
john
fadhil

the crazy fat uncle

who always chase us away wif a tire iron

aint there anymore [YAY]

guess at his age retirement is the only way to go

poor fat bastard

screwed

2008-06-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

stuff is jus fukin fucked up
like wat the fuck is happenin
like it was suppose to be like
a one chance thing
like its not everyday
your parents goes on a
friggin holiday leavin u at home
for 3 days
n i was suppose to hav fun
like gay fun

but its not happenin
shit starts the moment they leave
miny stuff jus pile up to irritate the hell out of me

the washin machine is spoiled
my 3rd toilet cant even flush
can opener spoiled
my switch fuse blew
bath pipes leakin
pple arent free
lost my keys
parent blanket smells of pee
keep steppin into mud when i go out
lost a button on my shirt
lynard's mangoes r leakin

all on the same day
FUCK

i'm stayin home all day
cleanin after my fuckup brother
wif his dumbass girlfriend
who keeps breakin all the plates in my house

i'm done
seriously done

oh yea like my dad said be4 he left
"oh there's cash in the drawer if u need it "
n YAY ITS not even there
so i'm left to starve
for e 3 days

worst still
i'm bein labelled now
like WTF
worse still its by the LABELLED pple
dun get wats so fun
bout spreadin bullying
jus cuz u were a victim once
uuurgh

i really really really
wanna lit this house on fire
n it'll be totally worth it i swear

goin ice skatin this fri
hopefully it'll change my mood

pinky freaky banana mama

2008-06-08T01:21:00.000-07:00

sorry 4 not updating
holidays r jus a killer
studyin all day
hangin out wit my sweet
shoppin
basically tats it......
sad typical s'porean life
...go figure....
promise i'll update often
when sch reopens

went wild wild wet yesterday
wit my jintong
n i love him
cuz he's such an auntie killer
everywhere he goes
aunties jus coooon up to him
pay for his dinner
chat wit him
offer him sweets
n try to tempt him to their houses
[although it nvr works....i think....]
ok nyways
we were suppose to pay like $13 to get in
n then some auntie offered
to giv us discounts
....
n then we each only had to pay $5
...
....
i love him
omg its so bloody cool man hahahahahaz
....
was jus tellin him tat we nvr ever
hav to worry bout bein hungry
cuz i'll jus hav to plant him
naked in e coffeeshop
for like 10 mins
n then we'll jus hav free buffet later
....
place wasnt tat crowded
aunties in bikinis
uncles in speedos
teenagers in b each attire
n naked kids runnin around

oh oh theres this new thing
ITS A FOAM PARTY
damn freakin fun
i felt like i was in a huge washin machine
sweetie had a prob not fallin down
poor thing
n then sudd the faNS STARTED BLOWIN
N WE ALL WERE COVERED by bubbles
now i knw how it feels like
to be a cotten candy

oh oh oh
my parents went off to
GENTING this mornin
AND I'M ALONE AT HOME TIL WED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg omg
its a dream come through
i'm so gonna party all night
n sleeep in dustbins in clemencau til mornin
so for starters
I HAVIN A HOUSE PARTY TONIGHT
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
runie suggested it
so i'm cool man
we're all gonna get drunk n sleep in e longkang.....AGAIN
muahahahaz
god tat was 2 yrs ago
swear i had seeweed stains in my hair somewhere

btw its international doughnuts day today pple
lets all FUDGE !!!

pananada

2008-05-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

holy hell
jus read e news
n to those out there who really cares too
the pandas are safe
all 60 of them who were held in the local reserves
were unaffected in the sichuan earthquake
thanks be to god n his family
such a relief man

got e news frm msn news
which inspired me a lot
i mean i jus added somethin to my be4 i die list
i wanna go to china
n hug a panda
at least once
be4 e species die off
or maybe jus pat his head
cuz i heard they were sensitive creatures

the world is dying
better to spend all your money now
then save it
cuz u never knw whether there's a future

chatted wit nikki on fri
n we both agreed tat if
today was the day the world ends
we would rather sit through it
then commit suicide
..unless we all turn crazy
n start eating each another
then suicidin would be e best measurement for us

2008-05-25T03:11:00.000-07:00

i'm pissed
my com has bloody loads of viruses
n i dun knw why
does anyone knw a com expert ??
i need help wit my wires n stuff
last time e bugs took away my internet
now it ate EVERYTHING !!!!
all tats left was e background pic
god i hate technology

thk god my bro brought e laptop back

of course it wasnt so bad
then tat time i lit the stove on fire
actually it was jus my sauce [last month i guess]
was heatin up my pasta sauce
n i totally forgot about it
nex moment
the house smelt like roasted duck

me : holy crap , mercy me !

LORDY LORDY LORDY

max: turn the flame off

turn it off !!

call homeland security,

, national guards,

men in black !!

i can nvr be a goodhouse wife

guess tats y i gotta hav a rich husband wit 3 maids in tow

oh ya nothin happened btw

jus....black sauce

went out aftertat

swear my hair smelt like fried marshmallows

but melvin sean n runie didnt notice

so i guess it was fine

holidays r here

n my butt still feels sore

its studyin all day la

wats e diff ?

n i hav absolutely no clue

bout chinese n management

not like i care

but its neeeded in A's

cant wait to get into uni urgh...

oh ya

sweetie's bringin me to e zoo nex week

like finally !!!

YAY!!!!!

hohoho

funny thing is he seem more hyper than me

to see e penguins

n he really really wanna ride

grey the elephant [thk tats his name]

wateva man

dun mind ridin it rounds

but once it opens the runway

n let out torpedos

i'm runnin the opposite direction....

swingin on the tails of destiny

2008-05-15T02:32:00.000-07:00

was a horrible week
didnt sleep for like a month
n it was so so bad
sweetie said i looked fat FAT I SAY
couldnt take it
n i jus cried today in sch
so much stress
so little time
i jus cant hold it in anymore
...
n then i snored in e sickbay
durin acc lesson hoho
i love the cushions there
thk its frm IKEA
...hmmm
might wana get one of those someday

nyways GP exam tmr
n i'm so screwed
sat got my 1st hockey match at boon lay
n i'm shittin my pants
OMG
bloody scared la
hope my stick wont fly til e end of pakistan
haiz

haha e best part

mdm watee : k gurls u r gonna wear e sch's jersheys on sat

us : YAY

mdm watee : ......its on loan....u hav to bring back e shirts on tue

us : WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

I LOVE CUPCAKES

northen star

2008-05-08T05:08:00.000-07:00

n then i jus

started crying

in the dark again

tattoos on a spleen

2008-05-05T05:07:00.000-07:00

its mon again
oh the blues of bein in sch
was still damn pissed bout sat
had hockey trainin at delta
so was restin near home
at e ground floor of hdb blk 210
my stick was on e ground

n then this fat cat went to sit on my stick
WTH WTH !!!
its fat furry ass was on my stick
ON MY STICK I SAY

me : hey hey hey

cat : [ignores]

me : shoooooooooooo

cat : [stares up]

my bro : maybe u hav to rub his belly then he'll go away

cat : meowwww....

so we sat there for 10 min

n then the bloody cat fell asleep

...on my stick....

so we tried draggin the stick

but her ass was too fat

so she didnt move

got fed up so i yanked the stick

....n then the cat got pissed n ran away...

i think i better bleach my stick or somethin

might hav dengue or cat flu or somethin....

damn it...why me ???

nyways sch was boring

spent 2 periods in GP writin one question YAY

met an old friend in e mornin

n he certainly made my day

i actually forget bout it

cuz it didnt concern me

so i should jus stay out of it

but wat he said really ticks me off

its nt the misjudgement tat angers me

its the trust

bein friends for more than a year

even if we werent close

wat i am or wat kind of person i am

u shd know better than anybody else

n the funny thing was

he whom is someone so distant frm me

actually knows me more than u

it really feels like an insult somehow....

but urgh...jus gonna let it go....

killing me softly

2008-05-05T04:40:00.000-07:00

YES I KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
i haven been updatin in dynasties
life is screwed
always has been n always will be
sad life
...haiz.....

ok so jus to summarise

mon :

watch e forbidden kingdom wit my sweet
was LMAO throughout e show
its like some kiddy show
wit chinese pple wit ang moh slang = WTF
i love e part
when jackie chan was lying sick on e bed

monk : we can't do anythin

he will die.......

i'll send a walking monk to the temple

jackie chan : [wakes up] .....don't u hav a runnin monk ?

omg tat was worth the ticket

btw its in eng so u non-chi-na pple can watch it tooo

tue and wed :

i forgot where in mumbai was i....

thurs :

ITS LABOUR DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUNIE

18 years old n still no hair

whohoooo !!!

was shoppin for his present

walked e whole of orchard wit sandy

while e bloody guys were playin LAN

wat the hells so fun bout DOTA ?

i swear i wanted

to strangle all of them

when they stood us up for 45 mins

...assholes.....

fri :

sports heats YAY

the sight of long lean legs in the air

the smell of sweat fills the atmosphere

n the fainting of pple left n right

damn it was a hell of a day

sweetie fainted after runnin 3000m

so i did the bollywood thing

ran across e stadium waving my arms around

shouting "first aid FIRST AID "

so carried him to e sick bay [stretcher like duh]

n e first words he said when he awoke was " i hungry lets go eat "'

wth.....so was literally bangin the pillow on his head

march of the teddies

2008-04-29T06:49:00.000-07:00

i laughed at myself in the mirror

n wished how it would be

so much better

if i was pretty....

everything would hav changed would it not ?

stabbed wit icy cold fingers

2008-04-28T07:55:00.001-07:00

am gettin real edgy e past few days
think its stress or somethin
dun know dun care
jus been hating pple e past few days
am jus so irritated
haiz
so stay away pple....

some bitch tried to piss me off today
dunno wats her prob
but honestly i really dun giv a fuck
sweetie was real pissed at her
but he was more pissed at me
cuz i didnt shoot her back
but tats the way i am
i dun giv a damn when pple insult me
sweetie asked if i'm scared
but its more like
i dun see the pt wasting time on pple like her

i hav better stuff to do
sweeetie was sweet cuz he confronted her
but i dunno
i'm jus
....numb
dun feel no hatred or happy or sad
i jus cant be bothered

...
wonder if i'm becoming heartless
or maybe i'm jus to tired to care
...

either ways
it doesnt really matter to anyone i guess

doughnuts mystery

2008-04-27T03:10:00.000-07:00

i feel stupid
n i guess i should'nt care
i've never like u
since the day
u started hangin out wit ........ ....... ...
u're a bastard
n everyone knows

u shd know e reason
why i've stopped talkin to u
months ago
cuz i see no point
retards are contagious

jus leave me n my frenz alone
stay far away frm me in sch
or i'll feel tempted to poke u in the eye
wit mr chelvam's foot
[dun knw how i'm gonna do tat but i'll find a way...]

my valentine

2008-04-25T22:52:00.000-07:00

am watchin e whole
MVP qing ren [my valentine]
serial again
I'M BORED SHOOT ME
so am like starin open-mouthed
at e com for e past 3 hours
i love youtube
...
i think i'm going locco
cuz i was screamin around
when she was buryin her exboyfriend's wristband
i mean come on
tat is a NIKE dri-fit 16.90 wristand
i rather use it or burn it
why bury ???
save space for the trees man

hmmm
i wanna go cycling at east coast
i miss the sound of the waves
n the wind in my hair
....

empty stage with roses embraced

2008-04-23T03:04:00.000-07:00

god damn it
i'm in love
repeatin tat obnoxious phase
i'm in love
sayin it again
i'm in love
one last time
i'm in love

whohooooooooooo

lets all swim down to sabah n do e Makerena

omg.....

its like e fire works jus boom out frm behind
shooting stars crossin the midnight skies
coconut trees waving in the background
n all the cows grazing across the fields
wit the banglahs followin behind...

haiz ok i feel like throwing up now
....
.....

lovin the feelin of bein wit u
so much
tat it feels numb
n i can't feel anythin else
besides u
....n...
it dun matter anymore
...
tats y....
...
....
.....
tats y...

tidings on a turn

2008-04-21T04:48:00.000-07:00

was croonin around
after school past 6 pm
n then i glanced past e basketball court
EVERYONE WAS TOPLESS
all i see was bare naked hot tan skin
and multiple pecs
...
....
be still my heart
....
i think i might hav a seizure whohoo

boots wit the fuuuuuuuuuuuuuurrrr

2008-04-19T18:31:00.000-07:00

i am soooooo friggin boooored
its nt even mid years
n everyone is freakkin muggin at HOME
WTH
even my cous hu jus went in JC
has started readin e TYS
WTF
i cant rmb when was e last time i went out
my clothes hav mould on them
MOULD I SAY
feel like
jus randomly
pulled a stranger
n say "hey u look kinky lets hang out "
jintong will kill me
but hey it aint my fault
he dun bring me out anymore
HMPH....

so spent e entire day
at home watchin dramn serials
from 12 pm til
10 pm
i watched 2 goddamn serials
wit a lot of talkin n no sex
I"M BORED....

haiz...

but had fun on fri though
cuz it was HOCKEY TRAININ WHEEEEEE
n then it turned out to be self trainin
darn...
nyways played wit the seniors
sticks n balls were flyin everywhere
had a little injury wit e year-one

i had the ball n then we clashed

him : omg are u ok

are u hurt ?

me : no i'm ok

him : u sure u're ok ?

me : actually no......cuz u're still steppin on my FOOT

[mental headslap]

haha

oh ya

there was this guy frm year one

the one wit the very complicated name

[can't rmb but i call him stick boy]

he bought this 159 bucks GRAYS hockey stick

[mine was only 115....darn...]

n everytime someone

snatches a ball frm him

he would check his hockey stick

n shout "MY HOCKEY STICK OMG GOT SCRATCH LIAO"

like some stupid sissy man

so throughout the game i aimed him [^-----------------------------------^]

i kept wackin my stick against him whenever he touches e ball hoho

i'm a sadist

i luuurve it when pple scream

muahahaahhaaha

n then he went screamin in all languages

saying how badly his stick is scratched

n tat he needed an ambulance

haha

liyana was callin him the GAY one

LOL

haiz

man i'm rottin at home

I WANNA GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTT

where i lay.....

2008-04-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

i burst out laughin the moment
it hits me
but deep inside my heart aches
cuz i've been denying it all along

secrets.....
are meant to be kept right ?!
even at the cost of hurting pple ?
i can see her hurtin so much
i've been through it be4
his simple words
hit her so much
it turned her world upside down..
i guess this is really goodbye
when he said
"i jus dun love u no more "
wat am i suppose to do ?
i knew it from the start
but i hid the truth from her
....
a promise is made
to tie a bond between two pple
but then....
does it mean we hav to disregard
our other friendships as well ?

love today sorrow tmr

2008-04-15T03:44:00.000-07:00

its rainin again

....

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

.....

was actually playin in e rain aft sch

....n then i jumped on a snail....

....em...

n then it died...

...

....

soooooooooooooooooooo

ya....nvm....

like e sayin says "when u got to go , u got to go"

haha changed my hockey

stick again

no diff jus e designs

n its MADE IN PAKISTAN

holy cow

imagine one day in war

when we're all out of ammunition

we would all charge wit our hockey sticks

rammin it into any butt we can find

n turn it 360 degrees

whohooo

was sick on sat [i'm always sick damn it]

went to my fav gay doctor wit 4 kids

jus to find tat it was another doc

n they change e nurse

N SHE CANT SPEAK FREAKIN ENGLISH FOR GOD SAKE

her : maaaallllyn pls go in

me : ......................

her : crraaawliiing for mmmmiiiiiling

me : .......................

her : meeerrriiiilllyyynnn

me : ......[almost there almost]

her : mimi pls go in

me : wat the...

i nvr wanna be sick again

haiz

nyways good luck

to all A div players

call me if u need support

i'll make banners

i'll bring food

n i'll bring e SAMBAL

n then we can all picnic in the middle of the court

I LOVE MY JINTONG HAHAHA

mus say make him happy hehe

desert roses

2008-04-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

been a fucked up day
failed accounts test badly
got picked on by mdm ong again
its the hormones
[pregnant ladies man]
slept durin mob
died durin pe
[ i luuuurvvve sticks and balls whooohooo]

had a huge arguement wit sweetie
afterwards
uuurrrgh
sometimes telling a white lie
in actual fact its
worse than a black one
....
so sick of misunderstandings
so i jus sat
at CLEMENTI MRT station
...
for an hour
yep i jus sat on e bench
n stone away
...
kinda odd
cuz mainly
pple will be emo n
then we cry
n then we think bout e situation
but i dunno
all i did
was stone...

didnt think bout it

didnt cry about it

didnt feel any hatred or sadness or anger

i jus sat there for an hour

didnt know wat i was waitin for
or who i was waitin for
its jus so bizarre
haiz

met nelson
n then we bought my HOCKEY STICK
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
its BLUE
HOHOHO
i am so tempted
to wack all kinds of balls now
n see them fly to mexico :]]]]

...i jus miss 4e4
miss e pple n class sprit
haiz
...bein mature really sucks

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other

blindly walkin on the shadows of the day

2008-04-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

....i'm only human.....

its not easy to be someone ideal
i thought u knew
cuz u tried it before
then
wat about me ? ....
wat about everything i've work for ?

your love is but a lie

2008-04-07T07:42:00.000-07:00

zai ge wo yi dian wen ruo....

stress....

give me a moment to bleed....

behind these hazel eyes

2008-04-05T02:38:00.000-07:00

was stoning on e train

n this really hot dude walked in

so was staring..[obviously]...

n then aft a few station

another really hot guy came in

so was takin turns staring at both of them

....

n then i noticed them staring at each another too

...

gt so depressed i went to the other end of the train

n sat down

haiz

hot guys always hav somethin extra hidden in them...

wonder where hav all e hot straight guys went too

LALA land maybe ??

skipped sch on tue

to go to e beach WHEEEEEEEE

wasnt really worth it

cuz there was a fuckin oil spill

so we cant swim

n I CANT TAN FOR NUTS

after 3 hours

in e bloody blazing sun

runie n sean gt dark

n i was still white

...damn it....

maybe i shd jus fry myself

wit vegetable oil

n then i'll look exactly like a banglah

hoho

I CANT SEE MYSELF AT NIGHT HOLY CRAP

SHUT UP I'M IN LOVE DAMNIT :]]]]]

went for e checkup

aftwards

at desker road

n we saw SLUTS at work

most of them are like in their 40's

but e china ones are like 20 plus

some uncles kept starin at me

like i was one of them

....dun test me man....

i have scissors....

....

ya i carry a pair of scissors everywhere i go

dun ask why

it jus makes me feel dangerous

hoho

did a pap smear n urine test

e ang moh doctor

was screamin in my face

telling me to love condoms

[was laughin my ass off in there ]

but she's real nice

i like her :]]]

feel damn pathetic

cuz e bill was like 92.60 bucks

n i owe GRAPE tat much

i hav no idea how to repay him...

i feel sucky...

wish i was rich

sign...

nyways

went for muar 1st hockey trainin

on fri

N i got OWED

BY THE BALL

WHOHOOOOO

...

god i suck....

haha

btw anyone has a hockey stick

to donate ????

oh ya

i jus found out

i'm officially attached

somehow we were talkin n e subject came about again

me : ...i also not really ur girlfriend

he : who say one

me : ?? u say u need time ma

he : i already hinted to u a long time ago liao

see i told everyone tat we are together

me : ooooooooooooooo

soooooo

we already patch already ah ?

he : [walks away]

....

ok i admit i'm dunb

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i'm attached

YAY

looking down from below

2008-04-02T04:47:00.000-07:00

fuck
some pple seriously need to
reach into their pants n find
bigger balls
cuz they're fucking pathetic

mind the language
i'm jus fuckin annoyed
some pple really need
a slap in the face

i might be a friend in need
i could be a mediator
i could be a shoulder for support
but i'm not a fucking BABYSITTER
i dun solve all fucking problems in your life
u're 18
u're mature

i dun get y u dun even wan to
make an effort of trying
to solve your own problems
its your life

u leave every single fuckin problem to me
n u skiddle off into the sunlight
leavin me to clean the shit up
n then u start bitchin
if i'm too busy or cant solve the problem

its nt like u're fucking five
STOP BEING DEPENDENT
u knw growing
is a splendid idea ??

uurgh
i had enough
so if u notice i've stop answerin ur calls
its high time
u stop clingin onto someone else
n get a life....

hurry up

2008-03-29T23:38:00.000-07:00

damn life is jus dull
am still hurtin in e foot
cuz was like walkin everywhere in heels
[gt lost again in CCK...go figure]
took e wrong LRT
so was stuck in ten mile junction [it stinks btw]
crossed e overheadbridge twice
couldnt find e freakin bus stop
so cross it again
gt so fed up
i jus walked barefooted
IT JUS HURTS OK....
haiz...
its hard bein a gurl

maybe i shd do ballet classes...hmmm
I WAN A PURPLE TU-TU YAYYYYYYYYYYY

i need cash badly
really badly...

luv her bod
she's hot...

lovin each day more
cuz u're inside of it
u make each day easier to get through
cuz u're always beside me

i fell in luv wit the dj

2008-03-29T03:34:00.000-07:00

ook i'm sorry i didnt update
for a whole week
cuz my comms spoiled
...again...
urgh someone giv me a laptop !!!

was like online
n dis pretty green lines started appearin on e screen
n i was like ..ooooo preeeeetty !!
then e screen turned black
........................
.....damn it.....

was a fucked up week
had e vaginal infection thing again

note : guys pls do not read furthur ,
unless u're really curious or '
u suffer frm contagious pervertivness
due to excessive incontrollable horny hormones

ok i had dis infection
in jan
n now it relapsed again
it jus hurtz when i pee
n lately there's like blood wit it
freakin horrifying man...

so went to e doctors
n i jus hav to wonder
WHY ARE ALL DOCTORS GAY N MARRIED ????
its bloody disgustin lah
if u guys see me around
i'll react how they talked to me in e clinic
i swear to u its bloody hilarious...n traumatisin

doc : it might be a serious infection so
do u want to take e test ?
me : em ok
doc : its $51
so u wan to take e test ?
me : em its ok nex time then
doc : u sure u dun wan to take e test ?
[aft 3 min]
doc : u sure u dun wan the test ?
[be4 i left]
doc : u sure u dun wan take the test ?

he was like a freakin broken record
i swear i wanted
to inject him wit detergent
in the butt
uurgh...

...n guess wat.....
my condition gt worse aft seeing him....god....

so went back again on tue
it was a diff doc [thank u LORD]
but had another injection
3X e amt as last time
n it was in e butt
was screamin like a horse
it hurts like hell
the doc was real amused [maybe cuz i was biting e pillow too hard]

i feel so traumatised now
i'm havin dis kind of probs
even without sex
i feel like
i dun wanna hav sex EVER in my whole entire life
I WANNA BE ABSTINENT !!!!!
can imagine in future
i'll be forcin my partner
to sign an agreement
like this :

dear beloved partner
pls agree to this be4 intercourse

i will go for all std / blood / aids / diabetes / brain / heart tests be4 intercourse
i will bikini wax before intercourse
i will always wear a condom with lubricants n antiseptics n anti-infectious killing diseases lotion

signed _________________ [thumbprint preferred....]
thank u n hav a nice hump...

omg....
i'll be more afraid if he actually agrees to tat
haiz
i wanna be 18.....

pressure

2008-03-22T21:30:00.000-07:00

things i wanna do be4 i turn 18

sneak into indochine on thurs night n drown in e live band music all night long

hang out at e zoo n ride e elephant [wanna do tat while i'm still a kid]

sit on those 20 cents kiddy rides for 3 rounds

ride the s'pore flyer

do underage drinkin again YAY

eat an ice ball

run around e campfire [maybe OBS ???]

dreamin of a dream so distant

2008-03-22T07:02:00.000-07:00

been stayin home alot these days

aint my fault

I"M BROKE MAN

haiz...

was huntin for money

looked under my bed

looked inside my socks

looked beneath e rug

looked inside my hamster's cage

n i found 50 cents

YAY

dunno y i tend to leave cash around

last time i found my 2 bucks

inside an empty detergent bottle

holy crap

wth...

eva since comin back frm KL

life's still e same

2 tests on mon

n i still cant be bothered

[tats y i'm bloggin yay]

haiz

was thkin bout my lifespan

when my dad turned on e karaoke

n started singin

hokkien songs wit bikini

babes on e screen

...fuck...

hammie came out

wriggled his nose

n ran back into e house

yea i agree wit u sweetie

go away run for the hills

...

its jus so boring

maybe i shd join a cca

or get a job

or maybe quit sch

n become a wakiki waitress

in sentosa

...

oh god

i need my life back

shawty is a killa

2008-03-21T09:01:00.000-07:00

watched step up 2
n it was gorgeous
i love the steps
i love e attitude
i love e music
jus love love loveeeeeeeee it bitch
haha
endin was pretty lame
but aint all movies ?
haha
gonna buy e dvd yoh
aft e movie we jus wanted to hit e clubs haha
was slackin at SMU
be4 tat
was jus lying on e floor
doin confessions haha

me
runie
sean
marcus
all gt it down at cathay haha

oh god jus wanna clubb

was at sweetie's house jus now
poor baby was sick
down wit fever n sore throat
haiz
see wat studyin does to u ?
poor baby
get well soon k
love u babe
...

sch is jus gettin duller n duller
jus feel like givin up sometimes

hehe
i wanna learn e butt jigglin thing
she did in step up
its so cool man

its jus emotions takin over me

2008-03-21T00:44:00.000-07:00

he said : is there anythin in ur head

i said : there's nothin worth askin tonight

he said : is there anythin in your heart

i said : it has always been only u

he said : you're mine

i said : how do u knw ?

he said : cuz i love u n only u

i said : forever ?

he said : as long as u're beside me

i said : i'll never lose you again...

[ thurs , 21 march , 8.40 pm ]

bleeding love

2008-03-19T04:09:00.000-07:00

i luv his smiles

cuz they always brightened up my day

i luv his huggs

cuz they bring warmth on a down n gloomy day

i luv his kisses

cuz they made me weak

i luv the way he says my name

cuz it makes me smile

i luv the way he says he loves me

cuz no other words sound as sweet

i luv the way he pats my hair

cuz it makes me feel loved

i luv the way he holds my hand

cuz nothin feels more secure

i luv him

for reasons some i cant explain

i want him

for feelings i jus cant explain

i need him

in situations i cant control

but futhermore
....

i luv my baby jus the way he is
....
.....
......
.......
.........
even though he's nt mine
...........
.............
..............

somethings are better left unsaid
some stuff r better left un-asked
history wont change
pple cant change

i'm used to lying...

i jus dun wanna know....

turnin back on the radio

2008-03-18T05:30:00.000-07:00

ooook i luv sch

the smell of disgustin food

the smell of old fat baldin teachers

the smell of pple gettin pregnant

[1st mrs tan then e lit teacher now maybe mdm ong...damn...]

the smell of fresh sheets of homework left untouched

n lastly

lovin e smell of victory

aft skippin classes hohoho

i would kill to see

any teacher runnin aft me

esp MR SIR

i'll pay to see him do crunches

fat old bastard...

was humiliated durin acc todays

got zero for e test hoho

then mr tan ask me to

explain everythin on e board

when he knws darn well i dun knw how

so was sweatin balls up there

uuurgh

then some bitch was sayin

tat i took damn long to do a question

wateva man

no wonder no one likes u...

was kinda shockin

cuz everyone knew bout our kl trip

i mean those nt frm my class

those whom i thk i know but not sure i knw

also knw bout it

hmmmm

....

it was amusin

cuz everyone asked e same questions

in e same sequence somemore

wahahahaha

u two go alone ah ?

go how many days ?

how many room ?

how many bed ?

got naughty naughty a not ?

hahaz e most hilarious

was when jintong told me this :

j.t : eh my friend ask whether i gt chitty chitty bang bang in kl

me : isn't tat a musical ?

j.t : no..i ask wats tat then he say

u got one chick right ?

then u bang loh...

...interestin news frm 07S1

haha

even though i dunno nyone there

.....

kl bonanzaaaaaaaaa

2008-03-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

things i bought

things he bought

our stuff combined

us at e hotel

ok so am back frm kl

wheeee

was bloody weird at first

cuz everyone chickened out

so it was only e 2 of us goin

seem like some sort

of cheapskate honeymoon to me

brahahaha

bluff my parents

sayin it was

some sch hockey trip

i am so sorry

had to lie

cuz normally

they wont even let me

see e daylight frm malaysia

on my own

so was packin my bag

..em u knw normally parents

will worry bout u forgettin somethin

[like duh]

so was expectin dad to ask whether

i hav my passport n wallat....but...

dad : gt check everythin

me : ya

dad : gt toothbrush ?

me : yes

dad : got underwear ?

me : wat ?

dad : gt bring undergarments , sanitary pad a not ?

wat if suddenly ur menses come then u stuck how ?

i dun knw there cheaper or same price...

...[mental headslap]

so was there for like 4 days 3 nights

it was my 1st time

in KL

so u can imagine

me screamin n hoppin frm

shoppin centre to shoppin centre

honestly

e hotel SUXXXXXXXXXXX

like wtf

we had a SUPERIOR ROOM

n everythin was falling apart

was takin a shower

n then e knob came off

wtf

at least it has a view

THANK GOD

honestly it was scary

bein only 2 pple there

traffic suxxxx

pple cross streets

whether its green yellow or red

whether its a truck , car ,lorry ,elephant or mango

they cross without

givin a shit bout their lives

...

n ohya

nt to be

racist

but everybloody

taxi driver is INDIAN

is great

i mean they speak eng so its a relief

but they bloody hell all

LOOK THE SAME

on e 3rd day

we were at sunway lagoon

we had e same taxi driver as be4

cuz he givs a good price

n he's NIIIIICE hoho

but e prob was

everyone looked like him

wtf

so u can imagine us

lookin into

each n every taxi

like dogs scoutin squirrels

wanted to shout

" DEY WHERE IN MUMBAI IS MY TAXI DRIVER"

but i'll get stoned to death

so ya....

didnt take ny pics

cuz was too busy

shoppin my butts out

i looooooove e shoppin centre

tat has e indooe theme park

didnt ride it

cuz j.t was afraid of heights haha

nex time then

i was scared shitless

cuz u knw u hear stories bout kl all e time

like recently

some guy got his taxi hijacked

n was tied to a rubber tree naked

kinky i knw

but aint a pretty sight

so was like some auntie

huggin my bag in frnt

glarin at pple

givin tat

"i hav mace in e bag dun tempt me to burn ur eyes out"

haha i'm freaky

but there were probs

where pple

couldnt understand us

they all spoke malay

so most of e time

we were like

ya ya ya ya ya

we figured if we jus agree they would be happy hoho

but when payin items

we had to use sign languages

its like being a freakin MIME

jus only tat we're brown

instead of white

....

spent like 1000 rm

he spent bout 800 rm

its e cab fare

they go by prices rather than meter

so a trip to e shoppin centre was like 15 rm

trip to sunway lagoon nback was 70 rm

haiz

i luv s'pore

....

saw this piece of crap

on e way back to s'pore

holy crap someone really drives this

it looks much worst upfront

its like it jus came back frm e junk yard

all good things come to an end

2008-03-13T07:52:00.000-07:00

back frm kl
and i'm suuuuuuuuuuuuuper shagged
spent like
900 RM shoppin
only had like 2 rm
on e last day [which is today]
it was so bad
i stole food
come on pple
i was hungry god damn it
would u rather
see me kneeling
on e coach's bus
goin
OOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWW
OWWWWWWWWWW
?
oh god
i love singapore

so cold the heart of men

2008-03-08T21:36:00.000-08:00

ooooooook i knw u guys r pissed

cuz haven been uploadin

braahahaha

sorry life's been hectic

dun wanna list out all e events

it'll be endless toots...

so last fri went to sylvia's

20th b.dae

u go gurl

stay hot n sizzlin 4eva

looooooove her condo

its like a freakin artifact

n its located directly

under e bukit batok mrt

so everyone on e platform

can see u in e swimmin pool

COOL

its paradise for

flashers man

oh ya

love e balloons at e party

so was cryin out screamin

when her dad

started to burst e balloons aft e party

n i was like

NOOOOO GOD LOVES THE CHILDREN

n then he gave me a bunch of them instead

YAY

had a cousins outin on sun

at vivo

watched the eye

wasnt scary at all la

bloody hell haha

was only scared

when kat started screamin

in e cinema

haha

all of them are pro snookers man

look how bloody low e lights is

n they didnt even touch it or break it

like i did previously

god i suck

brandon finally hav bush hair haha

cousins havin fun wit e wigs

i brought for gp project

[pls dun ask why...]

parent teacher meetin on sat roxx

i was scared shitless

cuz i failed everythin

but mdm ong was cool

n my parents wee cool

but i love MR TAN

[poa teacher]

he was like

"marilyn grades hav drop but she's a very hardworkin student"

dad : but she always come home late cuz of projects

[actually its cuz i'm bloggin but he thinks its gp project HOHO]

tan : ok we'll giv e feedback to e principal

dad : n her chem is very bad

TAN : MR TEO i'll be frank wit u

our school chem sux

very low A level passes

so u better get her tution

dun rely on e teachers here

I LOVE MR TAN MAN WHOOOHOOOOO

DIE EILEEN LIM DIE
BRAHAHAHAHAHA
hope they fire tat useless chem teacher

salute to mr tan

bow bow bow

went to max's concert

at NTU last nite

was fabulous

we had performers

like e PROJECT SUPERSTAR

NATANIEL or somethin

his voice made me pee

then we had

S"PORE"S BEST LOCAL BAND

THE BLACK FOREST

they rock my socks

they are hell good

n then we had

e two old farts

DAVID TAN n .....some other dude

those 2 guys

are judges frm

project superstar

n they are

WANG LEE HOM 's backup singers

...

n they r jus...ridiculous

i hav never heard a s'porean sing like them

....

but e stupid thing was

e concert was bloody 4 hours long

me n lina

were like dying in e seats

urgh

bad plannin

one of my bro's performance

he's e shortest one

wit white stripes at e back of his jeans

throughout my 17 yrs wit him

i hav no freakin idea tat he could sing

...n he cant....

so tats it folks

sorry e nex update will be a week ltr

cuz i'll be runnin round KL

frm 10 til 13 march

wit my dear jin tong

leapin through the ages

2008-02-28T05:36:00.000-08:00

its leap day tmr YAY
29th feb
only happens once in 4 yrs pple
on this day
in france
it is said to be
e only day where
gurls propose to guys
whoooooooaaaaaaaaa
kinky shit
hahaz
so gurls
muscle up your men tonight
cuz u're gonna be
takin e wheel today
sweep him off his feet
n take him round e world

some love quotes :

If you love something, set it free.
If it comes back, it was meant to be.
If it continues to fly, let it soar,
have faith that God has something better in store.

HaveYouEverSearched
ForWordsToGetYouInTheirHeart?ButYouDon'tKnow
WhatToSay,
AndYouDon'tKnowWhereToStart.

He IsNt my BOYFRIEND
bUT i feLl in LoVe WiTh
HiS hugs,HIs smIle,
hIs AdvIce,His kindnesS
& the tImEs We LAugh ToGEthEr
So i GUyEss you CAn SAy
i FeLLl IN LoVE With OUr FrIEndSHip

Just watch me fall
just watch me bleed
just watch me cry
just watch me leave

Love is not about finding the perfect person
Its about seeing an imperfect person perfectly

You can walk away from someone
but the footprints are left in their hearts...
because you stomped all over it when you left
[fav quote man]

stay close dun go

2008-02-27T05:11:00.000-08:00

sch was borin

was runnin round e sch

helpin out wit

e indian dances

ITS OPEN HOUSE MAN YAY YAY YAY

hmmm

mdm shamila ask me to join indian dance

i'm like waaaaaaat ????

imagine me in a sari

doin e conga on stage

it would be so odd

me bein e only white ass on screen

[no offense...]

hahaz

anyways it was fun

was runnin round e sch

n i still cant get e bloody

yellow paint off my finger

i tried biting tooo

didnt work

damn it...

so went bra huntin

wit nikki n lily aft sch

e lady was like

"u wan me to measure ur size ?"

n i went

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

once bitten twice shy...

[read my previous posts pple if u dun get it]

reached allen's house at bout 5

sam kim n sheila was there too

my shagalicious hot babes

soooo

we were jus lying

on his garden

admiring e sunset

n then

aft an hour

we started screamin

n crawlin back to e house

cuz his mom turned e damn SPRINKLERS ON

WTF

so went home

lookin like a wet towel

mmmmmm

my shoes

made e squishy squishy sound

i like mmmmmmmm

haha

i am so gettin detention again tmr

for skippin classes haiz.....

got to have u

n i dun knw wat i shd do

but i'm guessin tat u dun hav a clue

but i'm thinkin tat we would be cool

lets try it out n see

how happy we could be

n maybe u would be in love wit me

whores r meant for e dustbins

2008-02-26T06:59:00.000-08:00

urgh tat stinkin
fuckin assshole
son of a bitch
ya she aint nothin like a gurl
sick twisted
no good jackass cracker
haha
u knw i really wanna go
up to her n say
all e things tat she doesnt knw
bout all of us
she's gonna act like she dun care
but deep down
she's gonna tear up
hey
someone needs to put her in place man

someone needs to shove
a stick up her bony behind
n tell her tat
she aint the center of e universe

urgh she jus
ticks me off....

hopes she jus
get run over by a camel
or somethin

into the deepest ocean

2008-02-26T06:27:00.000-08:00

oooooooooook

i hav nothin to blog about hoho

did made a new friend on sun

at vivo

he is some india dude

not bad lookin

22 years old

he owns his very own

jewelry exportin company

in shanghai

he makes 2 million a year

n he's single

n he is expandin his business

into s'pore

so my dear indians frenz

if u wanna hook up

shafiq haf his email

brahahahahaha

am gettin screwed

cuz failin all my common

test papers

urgh

n weird thing is

my dad is jus bizarre

dad : hey do u wanna drink beer ?

me : em nooooooooooooooooooooo??????

dad: haha too bad

....n then he walked away....

damn it

parents arent supposed to believe kids so easily

darn....

cant imagine

10 yrs down e road

me n dad would

be drinkin by e porch

wit beer bellies

e size of brazil

hoho

aft all tat

we've been through

u've always been e one

who was there for me

who always made me smile

n now we're together again

i wont ever wanna lose u again

those words u said

will always be remembered

locked in heart

placed in memory

if i could jus hold u in the dark

2008-02-23T18:30:00.000-08:00

as u all knw

am pretty emo

past few days

but well

things cant be changed....

haiz

sorry seems to be the hardest word

ok so on fri

got into a row wit jt

so scooted back home

wore a pretty dress

n had makeup

cuz i thght we were hangin out ltr

n then he cancelled

n then i cried

aft 3 hours

decided to go out again

reapplied my makeup

but then we had a fight again

n then i cried again

aft 20 min

decided to go out once again

reapplied my makeup

but then we had another phone arguement

n then i cried again

DAMN IT MAKEUP DUNN GROW ON TREES MAN

haiz

so finally went out

wit no makeup on

i thk i looked ultra scary

cuz everyone didnt dare

sit nex to me

in e mrt

oooooooooooooooo

i'm ferocious

meow....

so at 11 pm

met kat , zara and mia

at tanjong pagar

was supposed to

hang overnight

at darren's condo

u knw some

lovely cousin get together

but actually
we jus wanna play cards

darren was freakin an hour late

asshole

so we ran around e playground for

an hour

yay

I LOVE SWINGS

i ws emo

so i didnt mind waitin

hoho

swingin my way into another emo day hey.....

the 2 babes mia and zara

my best cousin KAT....aint she jus gorgeous ?

so basically

we played e whole night

i lost 10 bucks urgh

i was e 1st to fall asleep round 3.30

haha

i luv snorin

yay

so went home bout6 am

n then got screwed by my dad

haiz

nightmares never ends

found this kinda cute in his room

haha darren snorin at round 6 am

What have I got to do to make you love me

What have I got to do to make you care

What do I do when lightning strikes me

And I wake to find that youre not there

What do I do to make you want me

What have I got to do to be heard

What do I say when its all over

And sorry seems to be the hardest word

Its sad,

so sad

Its a sad, sad situation

And its getting more and more absurd

Its sad, so sad

Why cant we talk it over

Oh it seems to me

That sorry seems to be the hardest word

too little too late

2008-02-22T23:50:00.000-08:00

only when u're gone

i realised

how much i really loved u

things r only cherished aft they're gone

givin up wat seems to be a beautiful dream

2008-02-22T03:21:00.000-08:00

more pics frm tat night

sorry toots

haven been updatin

cuz my life sux now

n slowly gettin it back on track

...

but it aint workin haiz

failed every paper

in e common test so far

i suck man

....

jintong

sorry i am such a bad person

sorri i've never thought about ur feelings

sorry i was always forgetful

sorry for e times i took u for granted

sorry seems to be e hardest word

but it seems tats all i can say

no one has ever made me feel this way

i'm glad we met

but i regret i didnt cherish tat

so many things had happened

so many i took for granted

so many i didnt put in effort

so many i let to waste

all along

u were the one hurtin

all i did was wonder

i've never really done all

my best to try to make u happy

n i seriously regret now

cuz u aint comin back nymore

i wasted my chance

n u will nvr forgive me

i want to make it up to u

but i dun knw how

i wanna stop hurtin u

i wanna make u happy

but i dun knw how

i really love u so much

but guess....i didnt really express it enough

club no entry

2008-02-18T03:23:00.001-08:00

us be4 e party

clubbin on sat night was

hot

hot hot

hot hot hot

hot hot hot hot
hot hot hot hot hot hot

whew

fannin in progress*

2 days aft e party

n i'm still hungover

yay

i'm burnin all over

mmmmmmm

i love it

met runie sean and nikki at 8

we waddled all e way to somerset

...n then we gt lost

darn u runie

runie : i knw e way follow me

[we walked across the street]

runie : ok now we're lost

[mental headslap]

thank god

marcus the condom

let us there

to ZOUK

but then we got rejected

sad life of underage ppple

sian...

so we head to

TANJONG PAGAR

n headed to REDZ

its a ktv bar

n it was empty YAY

so we screwed around

played pool

sang our butts out

n drank a whole jug of vodka

while waitin for

jeff n louis

runie meditatin tryin to make e ball fly wheeeeeeeeeee

so we made our way to

TANTRIC

oh yea

the music was HOT

the pple were HOT HOT

n the drinks were HOT HOT HOT

we had e most ex drink in e house

its called BLUE SPIN

it is a fuckin MONSTER

one gulp n my throat was burnin

if i finish e drink

i'll be doin e conga on e table

nt like nyone would care

but...

i like my modesty

so we did e

dirty dancing

the drinkin

the ooglin

n then we went outside

sat at e stones

jus below e "no entry sign" for cars

n then this

huge bunch of pple

came to us

n said

"u guys hav the best seats in the house

lets join u "

so we establish

e new bar

called NO ENTRY

n J quoted " its only where e hot pple belong"

HOHOHO

yessssssssssssssa

so we made

21 new frenz tat night

hahahaz

i loved it

we gt shocked at J*

he was e most friendliest in e bunch

like duh

cuz he is a superstar on channel 8

me : its sad cuz there r loads of gay pretty guys out there

him : oh sweetie u jus need to giv them

a viagra pill n they'll do u

last time in aus

i had half a viagra pill

n i fucked samantha

samantha : ya he tells everyone tat

me n nikki : ooooooooooooooooooo

jonathan : so how old are u guys

j* : they cant be older than 18

cuz look at her breasts

they're still perky

[points at me]

dotz.............haha

mark was freaky [some ang moh dude]

he was e first to get drunk

his whole face was red

n he kept drinkin

n he said i was hot

in the group picture

so i'm like

ok he mus be some

ang moh who like to hav fun around [tourist type]

n then they told us

he was a lecturer

at NTU

n is featured on CHANNEL NEWS ASIA

...

i also spilled my drink

....

anyways

it was a wild night

reached home at 4 am

n i loved it

this is the life i wan

happy n carefree

i love dancin

love the booz

love the pple

love the night life

goin again on march to ZOUK

YAY

part of e big group at NO ENTRY

i knw it aint a flatterin pic of me

but its wit e hunks man

pressure

2008-02-15T07:50:00.000-08:00

good riddance

common test is over

hurray

but there aint no break

so mon sch resumes

...the fuckin bastards....

hahaz

love my new skin ?

i jus gt bored of e old one

died durin

maths n chem today

like wth

i dun even knw howda do

so was jus writin love poems

n foldin them into a boat

for like an hour [e paper was 1 1/2 hours]

kinda retarded

cuz aft e teacher announce "pls start ur papers"

aft 20min

e gurl nex to me

banged her head on e table

it took me

like 5 miin to figure

she jus fell asleep

god

i almost poke her wit my pen

thought she was dead

..hmm....darn...

hanged out wit jintong aft sch

then sneaked in to sean's house

muahhaha

then he kicked me out

so crawled back home

at like 11

GOIN CLUBBIN TMR

YAY

FINALLY

i miss gettin drunk n

actin like some asshole

haha

reminds me of gina

years ago

at some house party at raynards

gina was on e table top

gina [drunk] : hey who here is wearin pink underwear

guy : me

guy 2 : me also

heather : me too

gina [drunk] : U GUYS SUCK I LOVE PURPLE N PURPLE RULES U SKANKS

....scary....

haha

nyways

partyin wit

nikki her 2 frenz

runie n sean

clappy n jolin

eeeeeeeeeh....thk tats it

gt a feelin we'll be shooed out of clubs

cuz in a way we're underage

but wth

i'll party on e street if i hav to

he wasnt man enough

2008-02-14T06:00:00.000-08:00

Listen girl

Who do you think I am?

Don't you know that he was my man?

But I chose to let him go

So why do you act like I still care about him?

Looking at me like I'm hurt

When I'm the one who said

I didn't want it to work

Don't you forget I had him first?

Stop playing me

He wasn't man enough for me

If you don't know now here's chance

I've already had your man

Do you wonder just where he's been, yeah?

Do not be worried about him

Now it's time you know the truth

I think he's just the man for you

Listen girl

Didn't he tell you the truth?

If not then why don't you ask him?

Then maybe you can be more into him

Instead of worrying about me

And hopefully you won't find

All of the reasons why his love didn'tcount

And why we couldn't work it out

Oh yeah

So many reasons why

our love isthrough, yeah

What makes you think he'll be good to you,

no

It makes no sense cause he will never change

Girl you better recognize the game,

oh yeah

by toni braxton

tired

2008-02-13T07:12:00.000-08:00

mmm died for like accounts paper

took e temp exercise today

in my heart

i prayed i'll get a fever

then i'll be excuse frm exams

n then sail away on a carribean cruise wit a blondie

36.0 degrees

damn....

haha

n then at e end of it

mrs wan gav us e answer sheet

n then e whole hall groan

haha

really cute

half of us wanted to throw e papers

back in her face

the others wanted to burn it

hmmm gonna be busy e nex few days

cuz

i laid off jintong last night

urrgh

i was jus real tired of this bullshit

us sneakin around as a sort of couple

pathetic

its either i hav him wholly

or a rather we be nothin at all

so he chose her

hmmm

guess he likes to be emotinally tortured

wateva

i'm jus relieved its over

nomore pretentious dramatic bullshit

so like all gurls

aft lettin go

an idiotic flirtatious boyfriend

we all tend to party

oh yea baby

clubbin wit e gang

at homeclub

tmr night

n then i'm gonna throw up

all over e field

on sun mornin

durin dragonboat trainin

n then at night

i miiiiiiiiiiihgt

be hangin out wit clappy n his frenz

to go to.....lunar ?

some sort of club i guess haha

lets all get drunk

oh ya

happy v day

to everyone n anyone

thanz pple for ur presents

haven open them

jus waitin for e right moment brahahaha

shafiq sent me home again today

yay

poor dude

e sch might be expelling him

cuz of poor attendance n conduct

wth

stupid eileen lim

tat short ugly menopausal woman

urgh

i'll tear e mi buildin apart

if they dare expel him

i'll pee on her

n maybe throw her

back to bein

one of e 7 dwarfs wit snow white

she can be dopey

it was startin to feel boring

it didnt hurt as much

so...my love for u jus died

thank god

cuz u aint worth the effort

can't keep runnin back

to someone so weak n immature

i'm in a diff light now

n its shining

away frm u

2008-02-13T06:23:00.000-08:00

hmm valentines dae is tmr

for e 1st time

in 4 years

i'm single on this day

n to admit

it is a little solem

...

was studyin at yishun

was freakin empty

everyone was either

hybernatin at home

wrappin flowers

or doin last min shoppin at orchard

buyin choo choo bears

haiz

its a little depressin

....

its always nice

to receive somethin

regardless of how small it is

as it reflects

how important u are as a person

to know tat

someone in this world cares for u

n is thinkin about u

when u aint around

...

for tat feeling

its pretty much worth anythin

....

so i'm jus sittin

in my room

thinkin

.....

is there anybody

out there

thkin about me tonight

while i lay in my sleep

dreamin about them

i quit

lovin u is a job i dun need

aint ever gonna work no more

it aint worth it

never was

but still

i lie to myself

sayin everything's gonna be alright

letting go wat u coulnt hold on to

2008-02-11T03:08:00.000-08:00

its so odd

been seeing someone lately

n it feels like i've known him for so long

he looks back at me

wit e same expression

be it

in the bus

or at the bus stop

he always hav tat

...special expression when he sees me....

but i'm like

who the hell are u

i knw he is in

year 3

but tats it

...odd ball...

sign*

commontest is screwin me

back to muggin

confession 1 :

n i dunno

since when

i started to regret

nt knowing u first

confession 2 :

sometimes pple can be wrong
so so wrong
boy I thought you'd realized
I'm not like them other gurls
Cuz I saw them with my own eyes
You should've been more wise babe

giv me a reason to feel intoxicated

2008-02-10T05:01:00.000-08:00

urgh

been a weird weird day

runie n sean popped by today

its e 3rd day man

woke at like 3 pm

yay

i love sleepin

its the best thing nex to......

nyways

aftwards

went to orchard to change

my shoes frm n.u.m

trip in the mrt

suck like hell

the crowd

was bad as hell

when i found out n.u.m was close

was angry as hell

the food at cini

suck more like hell

so this means

i'm in hell

so if anyone

ask u to go to hell

jus come right here

be my hellmates

muahhahaha

chilled at gloria jean's

the best coffee shop ever

then met sean's friend

he's cute as hell

haha

so we went skipping

holdin hands

all e way to tanjong pagar

e land of famous clubs n gay bars

its a real sweet night life

wanted to get into PLAY

but the line was long as hell

so we went

to this ktv bar called

legend

n it was beautiful

love the deco man

gt myself

a lycee martini

n god i was in love wit it

its 16 bucks but it was niiiiiiiiiiice

n then we all gt high

n we wanted to jiggle on e bartop

haha

some gurl was singin a song [she's real good]

n then halfway

she started screamin in e mike

rat rat rat

n then everyone

jumped on e table

n did a mini tapdance

hahahaha

fuckin hilarious

boy

u're jus so unpredictable

evrytime i try to leave

you jus bring me back

so much water

sometimes i cry a river

You dried my eyes and

brought me back to laughter

And when I lay next to you

I want to wake up

And when I break up,

its only to make up

so Boy promise me,

As long as you are my boo

lets jus try to make this work

cuz it dun matter wat the haters say

as long as u stay true

i'll always be here for u

cny festive season

2008-02-10T04:47:00.000-08:00

holy crap

been friggin busy this past few days

its cny pple

hahaha

was rather busy

couldnt get e pictures yet

so wait a moment yea ?

1st day :

woke up damn bloody

early

like round 11

....yes it was early...

travelled to my dad side

n we were e 1st time arrive

....again.....

i hav no bloody idea y dad likes to go so

freakin early

so aft like 2 solo hours

me n my bro

were sleepin open-mouthed

on e sofa....

n then one of e aunts

tried to stuf e hongbao

in my mouth

cuz she thght i looked cute

...wth...

n every year its the same

pple gamble

they eat like hell

n they always always

comment on your body

e moment they see u

went shoppin

n bought everythin black

so had no choice

but to wear jintong's shirt

wit an obi belt over

3rd aunt was

complainin tat

i shd wear those low cut tops instead

cuz i had boobs to fill now

.....evil.....

but then its

nice to see pple

u only meet once a year

even though u forgot their name

was bein a stupid bimbo

cuz once i entered

e houses

i went like

shit

how the fuck am i suppose to call them ?

n then i did e american thing

n smiled my way through

like some retarded bimbo flight stewardess

urgh

2nd day :

went over to jintong's house

then went to his aunt's house for reunion dinner

then he popped by my ahma's house

n then we went to watched cj7

it sucks btw

it was kinda cute

cuz it was e 1st time bringin someone over

n he was shy

n i didnt knw wat to do

sooooooooooooooooo

we entered e house

n jus stoned in e middle of e room

...speechless, head hunglow.....

like some freakin manequin

god i suck

so nyways

hongbao money = 202 bucks

yay

n i alr spent half of tat

yay

....

hahaha

common test is tmr

i am so frigggin screwed

moi

2008-02-06T03:27:00.000-08:00

What Marilyn Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

n the worst part is

this is all so incredibly true

tidings on a new rave

2008-02-05T04:50:00.000-08:00

ooooook

haven been updatin recently

hohoho

u stalkers hav been pressurin moi to update

fine

i'm sorry

been crazy over new year shoppin

cuz my

pay only came like on

thurs

so only 4 days to shop

like wth

screw u agnes

uurrgh

sat ,

went shoppin wit runie n sean

walked whole of

united square

far east

heeren

zara

n in e end

i ended up wit

black leggings

n a black spagetti strap

i jus love black alright

its e new green [or somethin]

kinda died tryin to walk through e crowd

hell load of pple la

n i'm short

so was like

steppin on everyones toes

jus to get a view ahead

sun :

went shoppin wit my dear

cuzz....kat

i love u baby

went to bugis

nothin there

then head to vivo

mmmmmmmmmm

i luuuuuuuuuuurve

shoppin

we were like 2 kids on redbull

we were like

omg zara

omg river island

omg forever 21

omg omg omg

bunch of bimboes

jumpin n hoppin into e stores

yea

pple were starin

but well

i luv runnin in heels

it makes me feel taller......go figure

we saw eriverisland

bags

n we were like

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

bloody gorgeous

holy crap

omg omg omg

fannin*

i need a sugar daddy

mon :

went solo shoppin

n i died

e counter queqe

was like longer then

e donut factory

wtf

was carryin my big

travel like size puma bag

so was irritated

wit pple bumpin

so i startd swingin it

it works man

pple started movin away

but then

this stupid kid

jus bumped into me
n then i jus send him
flying
towards e entrance
to taka
was stunned
for a while
n then i jus burted out
..."thank you come again "
i'm so mean

was doin last min
spring cleanin
couldnt be bothered
so threw everythi away
i'm spoilt i knw
then found out
i threw out my precious blankey
thank god
i gt to e rubbbish bin in time
be4 e blangahs came
it would be
funny as hell
to see me
chasin e garbage truck down e street
shoutin
"stop stop
kepp smiling
cuz i cant see ur face"

i'm goin to hell aint i
hahahahaaha

been thinkin alot
bout wat i wan
for valentines
..n i wan a ring...
it can jus be frm anybody
but i dun knw
it holds a special bond feelin to me
i like it
hmmmmmmmmmm

omen frm the stars

2008-01-30T05:25:00.000-08:00

probably the stars heard my plea

on tat night i prayed

i prayed

to be whole again

n it sorta came true today

i'm happy

so so glad

tat u didnt lie

i'm jus so happy

tat u made ur stand

this will be our dirty little secret

blockin out the sunlight

2008-01-29T03:50:00.000-08:00

i luuuuuuuurve sch

hate e studies

but luv e drama

n the pple

was really emo past free days i admit

wat wif pple tellin me nt to go nyjc

ain threatenin

to call e principal

n hammer him to death

geez

freaky

died today

cuz we had our 2.4

was really down

cuz e guys n e girls ran seperately

thought i could run wit my eyecandy

damn it

there goes all my motivation

...

nyways managed to pass

14 seconds wheeeeeeee

sucky timin

but at least i pass man

but aft e run

hav a freakin cramp

so was hoppin round

e sch shoeless

ooooooooooooo kind of fun

oh ya some retarded thing happen

[last night]

me : marcus help me buy something to eat tmr k

marcus : i gt a bowl n a spoon u wan ?

me : wateva...jus buy somethin

[nex day]

me : where's my food

marcus : ta dah your bowl n spoon

me : wtf

nikki : hey tats a nice lookin spoon

can i keep tat ?

.....fuckin retarded...

hahaz

gt screwed by mrs phua

cuz we skipped lessons

but hey

i love it man

1st time in my life

i'm so excited bout detention

n i dun knw why

holy crap

haha

was supposed to

pace shafiq in 2.4

but in e end it rain

damn it

i wanted to jus

kick n torture pple round e track again

i wanna whip them

wit a belt

n go raaa raa raaa

so went home

n now i hav a fever

urgh

oh ya

happy birthday isabel

even though

i dun even knw

who the hell u are

but ya

i jus love celebratin birthdays

cuz wit birtdays u hav cake

n i love cakes

esp creamy ones

last last year

i gt smashed wit

a 2 kg cake [it was fruit cake yay]

n then i jus started lickin myself

mmmmmmmmmmmmm

lick lick lick

i mean y waste a good cake pple

hohoho

sometimes i fancy

dumping a cake

on my eyecandy

frm head to toe

then i'll jus offer my help

by lickin it off

oooooooooooooo

kinky

it might take a while

cuz he's real tall

but its ok

....i hav time

oooooooooooooooo

i'm such a perv

passionate love

2008-01-28T03:43:00.000-08:00

maybe its about time

u started asking yourself

why is it

that u're walking home

alone again

tonight ?

pple r only missed

once they're gone

so..

did u miss me when i'm gone ?

knockin on heaven's door...

2008-01-27T03:35:00.000-08:00

very bad day

i jus really hate myself so much now

woke at 9

rushed to bugis

reached at 10

then found out match was postponed

til 12.30

so waited

then aftwards

it was a walkover

so watch e match at like

1.30

n then rushed to yishun

met e gang

to study accounts

saw my ex's frenz

all ignored me

reached home at like 7

very depressin day

haiz

i am such a slut really...

its like when

i found out

e bball match was postponed til like

12.30

i stayed on

..

jintong

kept askin me to go

cuz he said he'll be nervous

if i stick around

but i was jus bein a bitch

didnt wan to leave

cuz i felt

like i came all e way here for nothin

i really wanted to watch this match

cuz i thght it would be fun

...

but in e end the match

was a walk over

so i stayed to watch e 1.30 match

j.t was still pesterin me to leave

but i said its jus 1 match

n then he finally gav in

but he told me to leave straight

aft or durin e match [if they lose la]

so....they eventually lost

i was jus dumbfounded

didnt knw wat to do or say

so i jus sat there speechless

we didnt speak aft tat

so i jus left on my own

.....

omg i'm such an idiot

i knw its nt my fault tat they lost

but i jus feel shitty

i'm jus so self-conscience

i did nt even care bout other pple's feelings la

i hate myself

shouldnt hav went

shouldnt hav even contacted them

i'm such a loser

i bring bad luck to evryone

i hate myself

i jus dun wanna talk or see them anymore

i'm guilty for life

i'm gonna ignore them

til i get accepted into nyjc

so they dun hav to see my stupid face again

god i really am worthless

i bet they really hate me now

thk they'll be happy if i jus disappear

frm their sight foreva

this gift

2008-01-26T08:26:00.000-08:00

did nothin much today

woke up at like 10

panic like hell

i'm late for sch god damn it

rushed to get dressed

took a quick shower

wore my uniform

n then i finally realise

ITS SATURDAY
holy crap

so jus went back to sleep

wit my shoes n uniform on

i hate myself sometimes

went to queensway

gt my runnin shoes YAY

its adicolour pple

its red

red i say

ooooooooooo hot

keith drag my ass

to woodlands

to buy lingirie

for his girlfriend's v day present

e shop was huge i say

n we were e only pple there

hell lots of bras

hangin around

thought my vision was gettin

lumpy

oooooo

n the same thing

always happen

in a bra shop

for me

k : eh hi i'm lookin for this design

do u hav a smaller size then her

[pts at me]

salesassistant : ah mei wats your size ?

me : i'm a 75 B

n then all 3 assistants

in e shop

stared at my chest

looked at my face

then stare back down again

....

i'm outraged

wth

n then i gt real pissed

when e fat one asked me

assistant : ah mei u put stuffing inside issit ?

wtf

i dun stuff tissues or fur or hamsters in my bra

jeez

i'm a natural

assholes

wanted to jus poke a needle

in her boob

n watch e sillicons flow out

urgh

nex time i'm buyin a bra

i'm gonna bind myself

happy ?

assholes...

nyways

watchin e m.i guys

playin some bball

competition tmr

so i'm jus gonna support

honestly

i dun giv a hoot bout bball

but i jus like

e atmosphere

sign*

e real reason

why i'm goin

is cuz i missed the feel

of supportin ur peers

i mean like in sec sch

whenever there's a competition

everyone

every gurl n guy

in our sch

would like go down to support

whether we knw or dun knw e person

as long as they r frm our sch

the unity is there

imagine 1 whole bunch

of idiots

cheerin at e top of our lungs

we celebrate together when we win

we hug each another n cry if we lose

its the bond

now in m.i

no one givs a shit

its so dull

there aint no love anywhere

sign*

i miss high sch

i wan my 4e4

i wanna play rugby n break all my bones again

oh ya

i'm in e valentine day mood

haha

n my fav all time

love song

is "this gift"

from 98 degrees

e greatest boyband on earth

luv all their songs

but this is my fav since i was little

7 days

2008-01-26T00:30:00.000-08:00

i've jus made an important

decision wit my bro

i've decided to leave m.i

n go to nyjc

been thkin bout it alot

n i thk its best

to study there instead

cuz although

i've alr spend a year here

but how far can i go ?

the facilities r ok

the teachers r quite ok

the pple r friendly

but it jus lacks of a competitive study environment

n honest to

say i screwed up my year 1

so startin over again

aint tat bad

i jus feel tat

i'm nt missin anythin if i leave this place

i thk i can acheive better

if i was in nyjc instead

so tats why

i thk its best to leave

season of love

2008-01-25T19:11:00.000-08:00

oooooook

so valentines day is comin

hooooooooray

n on tat day i hav exams

hoooooooooray

god my life suxx

nyways

couples hav been askin me

wat the hell do i do ?

hey pple

do i look like some cupid ?

haha

jus kidd...

nyways here r my views man

the greatest place to hav ur honeymoon

bora bora islands

like duh

only the rich n the famous are able to afford

a holiday there

but god man

its jus so bloody beautiful

its ridiculous

....

about valentines presents

i dun knw wat to say

each individual

has their own set of style

so its nt my place to say

wat's nice n wats not

but all i knw

tat wateva u giv

wateva u do

she will still love it

becuz its from u

gettin a gift frm whom u love

even if its small or puny

but it means the world to her

cuz

the greatest thing in life

is jus to love

n be loved

in return

...

here's a short love poem pple

You live in my heart,

i won't break it apart,

even if it makes me to cry,

i will love you till i die.

Blood doesn't flow in my vein,

ur thought flows in it as a pain,

I may not be the one for you,

i would have still loved you-even if i knew....

My love is not written on sand

,for the waters to wash away,

it is written in my heart to stand,

all the difficulty that comes its way.

I still smile looking into the life of yesterday,

to wipe away the tears that you bring everyday,

Nights seems to be getting longer and longer,

with thoughts of u getting stronger and stronger.

My love may not be one happy chapter,

like the saying "they lived happily ever after",

By loving,i have lost everything to you,

what i still possess is just the memories-

of once being with you....

n gurls

if u're in a tangled web,

jus stop n think

bout ur boyfriend

think...

does he rub your feet
when u had a long day ?

does he call u in the middle of the day
jus to say baby i love u ?

does he hold your hand
sayin he'll nvr let go no matter wat

does he wait for u aft sch
jus to walk u home
to be sure of your safety ?

will he always be there
when your world starts crashin down ?

does he hug u in the middle of the night
when ur feet gets cold ?

does he look u in the eye
n kisses u passionately
in the middle of the road ?

does he held u close
sayin how he wishes this nvr ends
n if it does
he would choose to love u again ?

i've love n lost

so many pple dear to me

in this life

some moved on

some disappeared

some came back to me

but i jus wanna

dedicate this song

to them

wherever u may be

whateva u r doin

jus wanna let u knw

i'm glad we've met

i cherished the happy times we spent

i love u all...

n to all singletons

on this special day

where all couples celebrate their love

while u sit at home n moan

thkin how life is unfair

jus knw tat somewhere out there

your true love

is thkin n doin the same thing

but for me

love is jus a fools game

it does nothin but hurt

it lifts your spirit

n then shoots it down

its bittersweet

...but yet i test it over n over again..

til i'm sick of it

i'm scared

afraid to love again

to be hurt badly again

...its jus nt worth it...

never was

house of hush

2008-01-25T07:29:00.000-08:00

deleted all our messages

deleted all numbers

pictures n memories

of us , locked up securely in my heart

presents n gifts

r stored safely

in the closet

in my mind

i forgot our story

i lift up my hands n pray

to forget everythin

to hav ur existence unknown

tat would be best for me

one last cry

one last memory

i closed my eyes n prayed

tat when i look up

ur figure would be nothin but

jus another shadow

....

...jus another stranger to me...

misery loves company

2008-01-24T22:42:00.000-08:00

i am proud of myself today

hohoho

a litle arrogant there i agree

but i hav matured

n am proud of me

applause*

ok so came to sch

gt back my diary

from jintong

n read his breakup letter

he secretly slotted inside it

urgh

of all timings

i'm filled wit stress

now there's more addin on to it

couldnt take it

i jus collapsed in sch [yes...again]

hid in the o hub

handicap toilet

durin chinese

n cried my eyeballs out

plus vomit e sakura buffet last night eeeww

was so bad wan yee had to

support me

to the canteen aft class

haiz

bumped into shafiq

passed him the letter

n let him jus do wateva he wants wit it

cant be bothered keepin it

guess he threw it away

wateva man....

actually wanted to bring it to the zoo

n feed it to the cows

but

one : its too far

and two : the cows will hav indigestion and i love cows.....

so hanged out at e gym wit him

i broke my butt

n sprain my wrist

while tryin to do

e machine

ow

shafiq was jus laughin his ass off

...asshole

so took off our couple

keychain frm my locker too]

n jus fling it on e ground

too lazy to dump it nicely in the bin

i might be bein a bitch

but i'm jus angry

so guys u better nt pissed me off

hohoho

i mean if it was jus some

crazy normal wild relationship

it wouldnt be so bad

but imagine

him tellin u everyday tat i'm nice

n he says he did well choosin me

or him showin u off to his pals

n then

breaks up wit u

sayin u're nt his type

wtf

...

wateva

like they say

once a flirt alwya a flirt

they jus like messin ple's life up
cuz they jus feel like it

...

i'm sorry if i seem really mean

but i'm jus like this when i'm angry

i might regret the words tmr

but jus tonite

..i'm jus gonna say wateva comes to mind...

oh ya btw

i hav a new eyecandy

he's in year 3

his cca is track

h e is real cute

n he has a bod

nuff said haha

saw my 2nd eyecandy today

n he smiled at me

omg omg omg

i melted in an instance

couldnt even move or breathe

so i jus gave him back a "peace" sign

n then i ran to the back of the canteen

n hyperventilate

haha

but was really a depressin day

everyone knew i cried

cuz my eyes were swellin

holy crap i look like a gold fish

wheeee

couldnt smile at all

couldnt laugh

my eyes hurted so much

i walked home

eyes half shut

so i kept bangin into stuff again

i feel like a pinball machine u knw ?

nyways goin out wit shafiq now

he's bringin me on a date

to god knows where

he didnt wanna tell me where we're goin

but hey its ok

i like surprises

..

at least there's one thing

good aft havin this

one-night-relationship

wit j.t

i made fabulous new frenz

like shafiq , muthu n jun ming

esp shafiq

thanx so much

for always bein there

when i need a shoulder to cry on

i owe u so much
i'm proud to hav a guy like u

...

meetin kat

nex week

for haji lane shoppin

we're gonna burn our wallets big time man

nyways
gtg
later babes

i'll show posts again ltr

horror is the new delight

2008-01-24T05:07:00.000-08:00

fuckin emo day

mind the language

but i jus freakin tired n stress now

was already feelin emo

cuz of yesterdae

"break my heart into pieces" day

n then today

everyone around me was emo

wtf...

o level frenz

r cryin over e phone

sayin how shitty they are

my best frenz r

crackin up

my dear clique

has a little drama here n there

n like my world is jus crashin over me

i cant study

i cant hand up homework on time

i hav love issues

i hav cash issues

i hav frenz issues

..its jus so hard to bear...

i'm losin my mind

so ignored everybody in sch todae

i'm sorry if i offended everyone

but i jus wasnt in e mood

so sorry

its like i'm jus so so so bloody depressed

i'm so depressed tat i cant cry

haha....ironic right ?
i jus couldnt be bothered wit anythin

but it wasnt tat gloomy e whole day la
gt back my O level ENG results
hoho
i gt a B4
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAy
from d7 to b4
i improved
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
so my l1r5 is like 14 pts
hmmm
dunno wanna transfer out
.....

took e five stations today
n i'm happy hoho

sit up : 48

pull up : 40

sit and reach : 53

shuttle run : 11.0 secs

standin board jump : 170

so i jus needa pass my 2.4

n i'll get gold again

yay

i cant run for nuts

hmmm

maybe if i hold my eyecandies pic

in frnt of my face

should get some motivation

hmmm

saw him today at e gym

oh god

he is so hot...

whew...i'm burnin...

heard some nasty things bout him

was real worried

cuz i knew he was feelin emo

was tempted to call

but

...u said u wanted me to leave u alone.....

i guess

it aint right for me to call

....

dammit

so used to bein there for u

now tat i'm all alone

there's no one for me to lean on anymore

....

this sux

goin to e beach tmr

yay

lets all get drunk

n go skinny dipppin pple

wheeeeeeeeeeeee

story of our life

2008-01-23T03:58:00.000-08:00

we met one year ago
durin JAE orientation
i saw u on the train
wit frenz i used to hav
but the impression didnt last long
so we forgot each another's existence

many months later
sick of the past
i cut my hair short
it was then
u finally noticed me
u stared across e canteen
wonderin how i would be

u came up wit a plan
u held my best friend close
it wasnt long
be4 we met upclose
u didnt really attract me
cuz i thought u were another flirt

but on tat fated day
i saw u cry...
i decided i really wanted to knw u
i wanted to make the pain go away
i'm nt sure since when
i started to like u
i started to grow closer to u
wit every passin day

but aft 1 week
n u hardly knw me at all
u asked for my hand
tat shook the hell out of me
i was afraid
i rejected u
cuz i thgt u were insincere

one week later
i found out u were true
so i asked u to be wit me
to stay by my side for real

we had two months of
joy and laughter
cuz although
u criticise the way i spoke
the way i dress
the way i thought [emo]
i still loved u
cuz i knew u were true frm the start

but aft tat she came back into your life
u said tat u didnt knw who to choose
so we decided to part
but i regretted instantly
cuz i still love u dear
n i knw ur feelings for her
was nothin but a remembrance

so we patch back
but in e end it still felt miserable
aft all tat happened
so we finaaly break
n continue as frenz

but aft 3 days
u came runnin back
sayin how u missed me
n i hit u back wit the same reply
sayin i feel e same way too

so we secretly date
for this 2 weeks
it was the happiest times
of our life
although it was wrong
but we were happy
so for a while we didnt care

but reality struck us
we couldnt keep living this lie
so u decided to end it
u decided its best
tat we forget each another completly

in a way
we were together for 3 months
although it was short
but it was one of the happiest
moments in my life
...
coudnt believe it ended this way
we're both hurt by this outcome
but its fate
...
u said u'll never find another like me
...
n believe me
i'll never find another like u too
...
we held together n cried
cuz it jus wasnt fair
how can we love each another so much
when its never gonna work
.....
..
...
i stared at u across e canteen
u stared back at me
but we're strangers now
so i looked away
n faked a smile
thkin i'll get used to bein the past me
u walked away
i glanced over
but u were already gone
.....
.......
this is the end of our story
.......
.............
fairytales were never meant to be real
love is jus a fool's game
tat i fell for
over n over again

the old me

...will i be able to pick up the pieces i left behind ?

boo

2008-01-21T04:03:00.000-08:00

ok sch still as lame
n retarded
died durin p.e
hate tat bloody miss ang
fat bombastic slimy fart-tart
ate cookies in e mornin
[i knw i shouldnt but i was hungry kill me man...]
so ran like 5 rounds n then stop
cuz really felt like vomittin
n then tat retard
forced me to run another 2 rounds

was real tempted to jus
vomit in her face
aft runnin
....saggy buttock piece of crap woman....

is it jus me
or i hav balls for eyes ?
or eyes for balls ?
em...
ok.....
nyways
i jus keep bumpin into stuff
durin break
said hi to my friend
then i turned
n bumped into the wall

aft sch

waved goodbye

to my dear clique

then i turned

n knock into the

"welcome to m.i sign"

which was surrounded

by ferns

so was like

strugglin away

from e pots n plants

n then

for e whole

day i smelled

like fertiliser

wheeeeeeeeeee

chinese ended early

so ended at like 4.05

haiz

then stayed in sch til like 6.30

n then went home

wit shafiq,bernard n ketav

i hate him

so tao....[nt gonna say which one]

n then

as usual

some scary retarded guy

will jus sit nex to me

n stare at my chest

all e way frm jurong east to bishan

all e seats were empty

but he jus had to sit nex to me

asshole...

oh ya

i'm so sorry J.t

sorry for misjudgin u

i was jus a jealous idiot

i'm so sorry

forgive me k babe

i didnt mean to hurt u

graspin wat u let go

2008-01-20T07:40:00.000-08:00

damn it

bloody com still got virus

so cant upload photos

n hav to write

my blogs within 1 min

be4 it resets again

assholes....

woke up at 9

pass yina e cash

jus woke up

so went out

wit my pri sch brownie tshirt

fbt shorts

n mad mad hair

n then i bumped into this really cute guy

n he went

"oooooooooo had a bad night ?"

...

i wanna die

i jus ran home n bury

beneath e sheets

i feel outraged

darn

...

met j.t at like 4

went to eat steamboat

at golden mile

mmmm

place of aunties

oh yeeeeea

played pool aft tat

i still suck at it no doubt

but i hav improved

muahahahaha

i can survive

3 pool games

without hittin e lights

or pokin other pple's behind

yay

i feel less bimbotic now

....

so em gt screwed

cuz came home at 12

j.t emoed again when we were gettin back

haiz

sometimes

i really dun knw

wat to say

cuz its nt somethin i can handle

but....

nvm

its better not askin

cuz its nt gonna get anywhere

like last time

....

love it when we hang out like this

love it when we kissed

love it when u adore me

i love ur face when u sleep
love it when u kiss my palm
love it when u smile

but the more i love the way we're together now
the more i am afraid
afraid of gettin closer to u
afraid tat i'll get used to it
afraid of lovin u
cuz i knw u'll only giv me dispair
cuz no matter how hard u thk
u still cant make a choice right ?
sometimes
i wonder
y when she treats u like crap
u still keep runnin back to her
i used to wonder
but i dun really care nymore
never was patient
sick of caring
sick of waitin
cuz i'm really thkin its jus a game
i dun deserve this
if u dun appreciate
i dun giv a hoot nymore
...
i'm lettin go of your hand
...
cuz my heart doesnt hurt anymore
....
do u love me ?